ANCIENT BIBLE CODES: DNA and Bio Spiritual Warfare - 4-HOUR MOVIE MARATHON

THE NEW WORLD ORDER - A 6000 Year History - 2013 HD FEATURE FILM

Life of St. Nikolai Velimirovich

Life of St. Nikolai Velimirovich (link)

Gnosis - The Stoned Ages | Documentary

Spiritual Journey: Valaam monastery in Russia's far north (RT Documentary)

7 SECONDS "4 AM in Texas"

ARCHAEOLOGICAL COVERUPS BY DAVID HATCHER CHILDRESS EGYPTIAN CAVES-GRAND ...

Learning new words--

I'm a passionate & avid reader.  Not a day goes by that I don't run into a word I am unfamiliar with.  Not just a word I don't really know, but a word I SWEAR I've never seen before.  I love it!  Look it up, put it into a sentence or two, memorize its spelling, and thoroughly become FAMILIAR with it.

Here's a word I ran into in a blog I subscribe to:  per•sev•er•ate (pərˈsɛv əˌreɪt) 
  v.i. -at•ed, -at•ing.
  to repeat a word, gesture, or act insistently or redundantly.

BULBOUS CREATION "You Won't Remember Dying" (1970 Psychedelic-Acid-Rock Band!) This is the tits!!

So Many Books, So Little Time.....

I've received a huge booty of books over the past month or so.
I'd love to list them all here for ya'll, but I never seem to find 
the time to do it.  So here it is, 4a.m. ("it's 4a.m. in Texas..." Who
sings that?? 7 SECONDS, I believe?!)

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 "Let Fury Have the Hour: Joe Strummer, Punk & the Movement That Shook the World"
  -by A. D'Ambrosio

"Grey Wolf: The Escape of Adolf Hitler"
  -by S. Dunstan & Gerrard Williams

"A Terrible Revenge: The Ethnic Cleansing of the East European Germans"
  -by A. Maurice de Zayas

"A New History of Early Christianity"
  -by C. Freeman

"An Infinity of Little Hours: Five Young Men and Their Trial of Faith in the Western World's Most Austere Monastic Order"
  -by N.K. Maguire

"Occult America: White House Seances, Ouija Circles, Masons, & the Secret Mystic History of Our Nation"
  -by M. Horowitz

"Called Out of Darkness, a Spiritual Confession"
  -by Anne Rice

"Killing Pablo: The Hunt for the World's Greatest Outlaw"
  -by Mark Bowden

"No Longer a Slumdog"
  -by K.P. Yohannan

"Beyond Doubt & Illusion"
  -by A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada

"A History of Catholic Antisemitism: The Dark Side of the Church"
  by R. Michael

"Food Genes & Culture: Eating Right for Your Origins"
  -by G.P. Nabhan

"Supreme Decisions: Great Constitutional Cases & Their Impact"
  -by Melvin I. Urofsky

"Secret Lives of the Dalai Lama: The Untold Story of the Holy Men Who Shaped Tibet, from Pre-History to the Present Day"
  -by A. Norman

"White Hand Society: The Psychedelic Partnership of Timothy Leary & Allan Ginsberg"
  -by P. Conners

"A Burning Desire: Dharma God & the Path to Recovery"
  -by K. Griffin

"Evolution - The Disguised Friend of Faith?" 
  -by Arthur Peacocke

"Sacred Desire: Growing in Compassionate Living"
  -by N.K. Morrison, M.D. & S.K. Severino

"Ancient Christian Martyrdom: Diverse Practices, Theologies, and Traditions"
  -by C.R. Moss

"The Synchronicity Key: The Hidden Intelligence Guiding the Universe & You"
  -by David Wilcock

"The Gagging of God: Christianity Confronts Pluralism"
  -by D.A. Carson

"Religion and Spirituality in Psychotherapy: An Individual Psychology Perspective"
  -by Thor Johansen

"Shapers of Early Christianity: 52 Biographies. A.D. 100 - 400"
  -by R.H. Worth, Jr.

"Babylon's Banksters: The Alchemy of Deep Physics, High Finance and Ancient Religion"
  -by J.P. Farrell

"Genes, Giants, Monsters & Men: The Surviving Elites of the Cosmic War & Their Hidden Agenda"
 -by J.P. Farrell

Secret Ancient knowledge exposed - things the illuminati dont want you t...

"Secrets of the Mushroom, Psychic Abilities, DMT, and Religious Origins" Video

Great video here, if you can get through all the segments of it. ♥ m//r

 

Video "Quaerere Deum: Documentary of Italian Monastery"

Beautiful & amazing! I truly, truly want to live in a monastery like this.  I think it's been my dream for years now.   And meditating on my life over the past seven years, I am convinced that God has been priming me for this kind of life (though I could always be wrong!)  My interest in books, music, philosophy, women (and lack of them!), etc.  Too many things are pointing to the monastic life.  Of course I may simply be thinking out loud right now.  But in all earnestness, this kind of life looks appealing and amazing to me.  The simple idea of giving up everything to live a life of solitude for the Lord, all feels so natural to me. My personal daily written journal has much more on this topic.  I am not comfortable yet revealing too much here on the interwebz.

Please watch this video if you have 45 minutes to spare from your hectic all-important life.

TERROR - Keepers Of The Faith (Full Length Documentary)

Posted this before, but just had to put it up here again! Excellent documentary!!

 

The Other F Word" Really Great Movie About Fatherhood for Punk & Hardcore Kids, With Kids--

Watched That Awesome "This is CLASH TV" DVD--

"This is CLASH TV" is one of the BEST put together bootleg DVD's ever made about The CLASH!!  Chock full of live CLASH footage from all era's of the time together, including: Interviews from UK television shows, segments of classic concerts, and the great interview on the Tom Snyder Show in 1981!!  Tons more stuff on there!  Picked it up a few years ago, or given to me as a gift, can't quite remember.  Oh yeah, it's got their performance from Saturday Night Live in 1982!!  Hot damn this thing is rad!! 
In other news: I got the job I interviewed for today!  Yay for me!  I'm so stoked to be working at Zingerman's Bakehouse for the holiday season!!  And who knows, it may turn into a permanent full-time gig.  I didn't know it at the time, but today was the feast day of St. Francis of Assisi, whose name I took at my Confirmation into the Catholic Church!!  Thank you for your help, St. Francis.
God is good! ♥♥♥

Stunned At This Turn of Events // (Edward Snowden Was Wrong About the Great Solar Flare As the Big "Killshot" That Posed a Danger to Earth)

Soooo many new books I don't even know where to begin... I'm at the library almost every day, now that I live 150 feet away from the damn place!!  I'm going to make a couple of posts about that later on.

The following is an excerpt from a book I recently read, "Thrashing in Ragwood."  About the life of a punk rock kid growing up in the middle of nowhere & how he copes with it all.  Good stuff, considering I don't read novels all that much.  I prefer non-fiction, as m//r readers know! 

"I am still having a hard time understanding how & why this happened. I am still having a hard time with how a person whom I once loved & who ostensibly loved me as well, could possibly sic the motherfucking cops on me?! WTF?!? Lemme' say it again, What. The. Fuck?! Wouldn't simply emailing me to say, "I don't want to talk to you anymore. Don't email me" work just as well? Why in the fuck would ANYONE call the fucking cops on another person--a FRIEND at that--just because they didn't wanna talk anymore?? Here's the bloody facts about Sharon (unless there's something I'm missing, this is the honest to goodness truth): I went to high school with this "woman" Sharon (A term used loosely.) We were both in the punk rock scene, and at the time there just weren't that many of us punkers here in Ragwood, Nebraska. This girl was basically what we called a "poseur." She was like a comic book version of a punker--a thick layer of white corpse paint over her acne ridden face, black eye shadow, black lipstick, a large dyed black fully charged mohawk (that actually looked kinda' cool), carefully ripped & torn jeans, and black combat boots. The thing about her that stood out most, believe it or not, wasn't her carefully put together appearance, but her insanely large nose!! I am not exaggerating when I say it was by & far the BIGGEST nose I have ever, EVER seen on any human being in my entire life!! To this day I have never seen one bigger!! Thick & wide, and very loooong. Too long. My guess is it made the simple act of eating difficult. I couldn't even imagine trying to kiss her! (Actually I can, since I did try to kiss her! More about that in a bit.) Her & I weren't friends, but we weren't enemies either. She had it rough back then, getting lunch & other object thrown at her by the jocks, and spit on, ridiculed, and bullied by the punk rockers, the tribe she was supposed to be most at home with! I used to feel sorry for her, especially watching her get beat up by one particularly tough Asian punker named Annie Shapiro. Annie had a reputation as a tough gal (the feminine equivalent of "tough guy" I suppose) and was a brown-belt in Ju Jitsu. But what could I do, I was bullied myself by Annie! Fast forward to 2007, and me & this now ex-punker girl started chatting via MySpace. We exchanged phone numbers & started talking on the phone and eventually made plans for a date. I was super excited, since after looking through Sharon's MySpace photo albums, it appeared that she had had a nose job, toned down the punker gal look, adopted a macrobiotic diet, laid off the booze & chain smoking, and was even into running & competing in marathons! She also made it clear that she was very, very horny and wanted to have sex with me, on the first date! This is something I normally don't do, since I'm always afraid of getting an STD or worse: and unwanted pregnancy. So she invited me over to her house--for sex--and to watch a DVD & talk. Well we didn't have sex, not that I couldn't have, but I told her I wanted to wait & see where this went. I knew I liked her a lot right away, and she told me she felt the same. Of course we eventually started sleeping together & we fell in love. The only problem was, I was out on bond from the county jail, fighting a bogus minor drug possession charge. I didn't tell this to Sharon right off the bat (who would?) but rather waited until closer to my trial date. With the prospect of jail in front of me, I was scared & not really looking to get into a new relationship. But then again, maybe having a girlfriend who would write to me, visit me, put money in my account, and order me books might be an asset! I would up coping a plea to 90 days in the county jail. True enough, Sharon stuck with me and did all the things I mentioned. This made the county jail much more bearable. I got out after doing seventy days and Sharon & I picked the relationship right back up. Things seemed to be going well, but I just didn't feel "right" with her. She argued with me a lot, picked fights, whined about nearly everything incessantly, and was just an all around negative Nancy & Debbie downer! She hated sex--especially foreplay--(what kind of woman doesn't like to have her guy go down on her or finger-fuck her? Weird!) and wasn't at all into romance or spontaneity whatsoever. And the kicker: Her nose was as big as it was back in h.s., maybe even bigger! Not to mention that she would never let me meet her parents, coworkers, or any of her friends. I began to suspect that she was cheating on me, and my suspicions turned out to be correct. We broke up, but remained friends. We still talked frequently, mainly via email & text messaging. We had a few arguments, but never anything serious. We tried getting back together, but it wasn't time yet. The wounds of her cheating on me were still too fresh. Plus, she was starting school full time, so we decided to wait til she was finished with school, ostensibly two years. (Apparently community college & dating were a bit too much for her at one time. Hey, I never said she was a smart woman! Wait: A butt ugly chick who hates to fuck and isn't all that smart? What the fuck was I thinking?! LOL!) Well, after all Sharon & went through together, the end result was that she tried to sic the law on me! Let me repeat that: she tried to sic the law on me, for emailing her. First of all, I emailed her to apologize for my part in things, owning up to where I went wrong, and to say I was sorry & that I wanted to make a formal amends to her. Then I emailed her to ask if we could talk about things, her, me, us, etc. That was about it. A normal person would have returned the email(s) with either an, "I forgive you" or a "fuck off" or something in between. Yeah, a "normal" person. But apparently not this chick. Nope. Playing with my heart, and then siccing the police on me..... Well, the world has my word: Never again. I'm 86'd. Lesson learned: Stay away from the mud puddles, they're full of piranhas.

"Pride versus Humility... A CRITICAL TEST FOR THE SEEKER OF GOD"

Reposted from a Coptic Monastery Website~

Pride versus Humility... A CRITICAL TEST FOR THE SEEKER OF GOD

*"IT IS NOT HE WHO INSULTS OR BLAMES HIMSELF, THAT IS THE HUMBLE PERSON, BECAUSE WHO CAN NOT BEAR HIMSELF? BUT THE TRULY HUMBLE PERSON IS HE WHO STANDS THE BLAMES AND THE INSULTS OF OTHERS WITHOUT DIMINISHING HIS LOVE FOR THEM" (ST. JOHN EL-DARGY).*
Pride is a prison; it can creep into a man's heart and imprison the man from even a shadow of humility. Pride makes decisions based upon wants and desires of our human nature. It does not take into account the righteousness or the spiritual worth of the decision or choice but rather the earthly gain. It does not consider the ill effects of the desire upon those it will entail. There are many questions that can readily determine pridefulness.

Does your desire for accomplishment and reputation exceed your love of God? Does your apology for a wrong not readily occur because you need to stop and evaluate how it will affect others perception of you? Does the need to repay a slight enter into your consciousness more than the need to forgive? Does your heeding gossip overcome your respect of another and you favor its bearer by listening? Have you considered the gossip may be a falsehood especially with a non-witnessed act? Do actions such as these make you peaceful and prayerful or discontent and anxious?

While pride puffs up a man, humility lowers him. Lowly humility is the foundation for all other virtues to nurture and grow in strength. Humility is the graciousness of the soul of man. Humility is not an expression, an outer appearance, tone of voice, or captured into words. Humility does not come programmed into man but rather it is cultivated with each control of will, each immoral inclination defeated, and each bodily desire contained. As each ungodly act is diminished, humility begins to take a stronghold within man. Man finds that he is being raised up closer in his relationship to God. A clear sign of this is the true happiness man begins to feel dwell within him. The bearing of humiliation becomes not an impossibility but action towards achievement of it.

Many of those who battled pride in the Holy Bible often succumbed to its consequences. Those who chose the virtue of humility were often honored because of it. Pride expelled angels from Heaven, confused the language of those whom considered themselves mighty, raised a man sold as a slave, drowned a pharaoh in the Red Sea, and a man who needed another to speak for him became a leader.

1. Pride expelled angels from Heaven and humility entreated the Son of God to come down from Heaven to become a servant of man on earth. It has often been written that before man's creation within God's fathomless eternity, there were angels. God made the angels, heavenly spirits, somewhat similar to the soul of the man he would create. Lucifer was one such angel, who was not satisfied to be a heavenly spirit of God and desired to be as great as the Lord Himself. His pride having overtaken him, Lucifer refused to worship and serve the Lord our God. Archangel Michael, the defender of our Lord led the battle which drove Satan (Lucifer) from Heaven to eternal punishment. Those angels who accompanied Lucifer in the battle he waged against our Lord became commonly known as "devils". Pride is a powerful sin, one in which even the heavenly angels are plagued with and can fall from grace if allowed to overcome them.
   "How you are fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! How you are cut down to the ground, you who weakened the nations! For you have said in your heart: 'I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God; I will also sit on the mount of the congregation on the farthest sides of the north; I will ascend above the heights of the clouds, I will be like the Most High.'" (Isaiah 14:12-14).
   
   The Lord Jesus Christ chose to come down from Heaven to become man. He was born of humble surroundings to a humble virgin of a humble family. The Lord Jesus Christ humbly came to serve, to preach, to teach, to heal, and to save the lost. He endured ridicule, accusations of blasphemy, nails driven through his wrists and feet, and shamefulness as outer clothing was publicly taken from His Holy Body. The Lord Jesus Christ's closest male companions all, but one ran away rather than defend His Righteousness. This humble man would rise on the third day as an untouchable being. The Lord Jesus Christ's Holy Ascension would complete the union of God and man.
   "Jesus said to her, 'Do not cling to Me, for I have not yet ascended to My Father, but go to My brethren and say to them, I am ascending to My Father and your Father, and to My God and your God.''" (John 20:17).
2. Pride confused the mighty builders of the Tower of Babel and humility scattered peoples with different languages so they would learn to seek God. After the Great Flood, the whole earth was of one race and one language. They desired to make THEMSELVES one great city with one great tower whose top would reach the heavens. They rationalized that with these accomplishments they would "make a name for THEMSELVES". They had forgotten the name of the Lord their God who had saved only their lineage in the Great Flood.
   
   Without warning, one solitary shared language changed into multiple incoherent languages. The mightiness of the people was quenched with the inability to communicate and coordinate tasks. The Tower of Babel's top was never raised.
   "So the Lord scattered them abroad from there over the face of all the earth, and they ceased building the city and the tower" (Genesis 11:8).
3. Pride in the disguise of jealousy sold Joseph and humility gained Joseph control of all Egypt's vast resources. Jacob plainly let it be known that Joseph was his favorite son. It became the root of jealousy among his other eleven brothers and they planned to kill him. One man's poor judgment should not be allowed to grow and cultivate within others. The prideful nature of the brothers, rather than humility, took a stronghold among them and they plotted to be rid of him.
   
   Rather than kill Joseph, the brothers decided upon selling him for twenty pieces of silver to merchants whom would take Joseph to Egypt. Joseph remained humble in Potiphar's house, in jail, and with Pharaoh. He gave God the homage for all his dreams which came to fruition. Only Pharaoh on the throne of Egypt was above Joseph as ruler of Egypt. Even at that, Joseph had the signet ring of Pharaoh carrying his seal in which Joseph was trusted to sign for the king and to seal for the king. Humility made a hurtful, painful family ill deed into a prosperous one. Joseph would later feed his family during famine with the same humility that he rose to power on. Not only would the humbleness of Joseph feed his family, he would provide them with fertile lands in Goshen. Joseph's humbleness not only found favor with Pharaoh but with Jacob his father.
   "Moreover, I have given to you one portion above your brothers; I am giving you Shechem, which I took from the hand of the Amorites with my sword and bow" (Genesis 48:22).
4. Pride drowned Pharaoh and humility lifted up the hand of Moses. As Moses led out of Egypt, the six hundred thousand Israelites descended from the seventy who came there with Jacob. Pharaoh and his men realized they would have to perform the tasks of the servants who no longer served them. Desiring to serve no man nor themselves, Pharaoh and his great army with chariots and horsemen went after the Israelites with feverous intent. Moses believed God would help the Israelites all the while knowing without God they had no hopes to fight and win. 
   
   Moses prayed for God's help. Moses was instructed by God to stretch his staff over the Red Sea. A strong wind burned through the night and the next morning the wind had divided the waters of the turbulent sea. The Israelites walked to the other side of the sea on a dry path. Then the Egyptians, close behind, attempted to follow the dry path of the Israelites. Moses lifted his hand again as directed by the Lord His God and the waters came rushing upon them, not one single Egyptian, horse, or chariot survived. Death served those whom had need of a servant to serve him. Pride drowned a ruler and a mercenary army with the raising of a humble man's arm.
   "So the Lord saved Israel that day from the hands of the Egyptians, and Israel saw the Egyptians dead on the seashore" (Exodus 14:30).
5. Pride transformed Nebuchadnezzar into a wild beast and humility turned a brave widow into a defender of the faith. Nebuchadnezzar sought to demolish all the gods of his lands. He sought to destroy all the people's sacred places so that the all would be forced to worship him only. Nebuchadnezzar proclaimed his divinity boastfully with the titles of "the great king" and "lord of all the earth". He sent out his generals and armies to enforce religious restraint to all but him. In the end it was not Nebuchadnezzar but Judith's hand which was decisive in Whom should be worshipped.
   
   Judith fasted, prayed, and wore sackcloth and ashes because the Jews had placed all faith in walls and armies against the decree rather than trust in God. As a pious widow strong in faith with no previous training in either warfare or battle strategy she took the head of an Assyrian general and directed all praise to God. Judith, with trust in the help of God, defended a city without an army, military training,, or her own sword.
   "Then she approached the bedpost, near the head of Holofernes. She took out his sword which hung there. She then came closer to the bed, and taking hold of the hair of his head, she said,'O Lord God of Israel, at this moment strengthen me.' Then she struck his neck twice with all her might and cut off his head" (Judith 13 6-8; Orthodox Study Bible).

Many of the desert fathers sought to explain and continually maintain humility due to its essentiality as the cornerstone of all other virtues. Humility is a virtue that must be consciously and unrecognizably acquired rather than taking a few small steps to receive.

Shenouda El-Suriany (Late Bishop Youanis) wrote: "If pride is considered the worst vice, the mother which begets, surrounds, and strengthens many serious sins, then without a doubt humility is the top mothering virtue, which begets virtues and saves many from sins. It is considered the basis of all virtues. Hence, he who masters humility lays a good strong foundation for the building of his spiritual life. It is described by the one of the fathers' as 'The tree of life, whoever eats from it never dies.'" 

No one is exempt from the learning process as evidenced by this monk who dedicated his life to God and denounced the worldly seeking good standing of another.

"A monk once seeking the favor of St. Timothy the hermit said, '"I find that my mind is always with God.' St. Timothy the learned hermit replied, 'Better still is to see you below all creation, as there is no fall from humility.'"

Life's stories and lessons teach us to honor and seek humility. Just as Archangel Michael, Joseph, Moses, and Judith discovered God was with them when they sought Him first and pride last. 

The wise Joshua Ben Sirach said, "Because gold is tested in fire and acceptable men in the furnace of abasement" (Sirach 2:5; Orthodox Study Bible).

May we all seek to achieve undisclosed humility critically testing if we are seeking the Lord whom taught "...learn from Me for I am gentle and lowly in heart..." (Matthew 11:29)

God bless you,
Bishop Youssef
Abbot, St. Mary and St. Moses Abbey

"The Hittites" Documentary--

Jim Marrs "Our Occulted History"

A neat presentation based on Jim Marrs' most recent book, "Our Occulted History."

"The Yoga of Christ: Understanding the Hidden Teachings of the Gospels"

 "The Yoga of Christ: Understanding the Hidden Teachings of the Gospels"  by Paramahansa Yogananda, is a book that I am currently reading (as well as several others like I always do).  I've been more & more attracted to it.  A few of the short paragraphs I've read were just completely stunning to me!!  Wow.  This yogi really knows a lot about Christianity & the Holy Bible.  I didn't know this when I picked the book up, but it is a condensed version of "The Second Coming of Christ: The Resurrection of the Christ Within You" a two volume work.  I am now ready to go out & get that set!  I believe Barnes & Noble has it.   

Just wanted to give a mention to this.  Happy Friday night everyone!!  Stay safe, use caution, and keep on trying to love one another.  I know it's not easy, but it's worth it.   m//r 

Eastern & Western Church Fathers

INTEGRITY "Always Is Always Forever" DVD // Pure Genius--

I have ALWAYS been a huuuge fan of INTEGRITY! I believe it was 1991 or '92 when I first heard their album, "For Those Who Fear Tomorrow" released by Overkill Records, I think, a decidedly heavy metal label. Far from the DIY, small, vegan & straightedge labels that were really just beginning to flourish at this time. Heck, even Victory Records only had a handful--less than a dozen--releases at this point. (more later....stopping mid thought as usual. Have some things to attend to at the moment...)

Jimmy Cliff "One More" Video! Music From the Great Legend!!

New song from the legendary reggae artist Jimmy Cliff, with Tim Armstrong from OPERATION IVY/RANCID/THE TRANSPLANTS playing guitar!!  Really great stuff, especially some of the other videos showing studio footage of the two.  Tim is also the one who released all three of Joe Strummer's (R.I.P.) records (Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros) on his label, Hellcat Records.  Hellcat is owned by Tim Armstrong, and it's kind of a subsidy of Epitaph Records, which is owned by Brett Gurewitz of Bad Religion.  I think it's just great how older punk & reggae meet up with modern hardcorepunk.  It's a small world after all...LOL, I'll have THAT song stuck in my head for days now. Oy vey!  Seriously, get into this!  Good stuff!! m//r 


 

RANCID Every Album, All Songs in Chronological Order!! & Some of My Musings--

AWESOME!!! Make sure to start from song #1 'cuz YouTube screws up all the time and randomly starts wherever it wants to on users playlists! But listen, this kid compiled all of RANCID's songs, from each album and made one f'n long playlist! Sure, there are a few things missing, like the first 7", the "B-Sides & C-Sides" comp. CD, etc. But heck, this is totally rad! Seriously makes my night!!
See you bastards in the pit! m//r
  [little update Fri nite 9.27.13 --watching the "Give 'em the Boot" DVD and relaxing at home. Writing in my journal, surfing the web, and reading books. This is what I do. And I'm trying to do it with love. Went to Mass today at St. John the Baptist Catholic Church here in Ypsilanti. Nice Mass said by Fr. Bob. Today is the feast day of St. Vincent dePaul. I love you all. m//r ♥♥♥]

"Yoga, Karma, and Rebirth" A Great Book From Columbia University Press--

Here's a link to a cool book from CUP:

Yoga, Karma, and Rebirth (link to book)

DESCENDENTS 'Live At Coachella Festival' Incredible Hi-Def Set--all the classics! A must watch!! ♥

Amazing sound from the best ALLular band ever!!

BUS PASS "Demo 2005" I Love This!! // RISKY BUSINESS, DRUG X TEST

Pulled this demo tape out of my boxes at my mama's house & I have been jamming it regularly in the car's tape deck!! Haha, yes, the car is THAT old! This demo still rocks! And I'm pretty sure these kids were Canadian! (I say "were" because I know they've long since broken up.) Along with DRUG X TEST & RISKY BUSINESS, they've stood the test of time. Get into it f00ls!!

 

HEPCAT--

Listen to more HEPCAT.
That's all.

Some More Books to Brag About & A New Picture of Me!! ♥

The past two weeks or so have seen me inundated with an amazing array of great reading material!
In addition to a shit ton of magazines & journals, I've been blessed with some mighty fine books.

Here is a partial list, which also includes some older books I've yet to read fully.
I did get thoroughly into a book I picked up several weeks ago, "Petrus Romanus: the Final Pope is Here"  by T. Horn & C. Putnam.   Despite it's obvious anti-Catholic bigotry, it's very interesting and an exciting read!

Some Awesome Quotes--

"The Lord has shown that we cannot have the good work of perfect love if we only love those from whom in turn we know the return of mutual love will be paid in kind.  Hence the Lord wishes us to overcome the common law of human love by the law of Gospel love, so that we may show the affection of our love not only toward those who love us but even toward our enemies."

  - St. Chromatius of Aquileia (d. 406)

"It is certainly a finer and more wonderful thing to change the mind of enemies to another way of thinking than to kill them... The mystery [of the Eucharist] requires that we should be innocent not only of violence but of all enmity, however slight, for it is the mystery of peace."

  - St. John Chrysostom (347 - 407)

R.I.P. to my beautiful & awesome Grandmother--

Mi abuela!  An incredibly generous & beautiful woman, who passed away yesterday at the age of 93.
She lived a full & amazing life.  I hope she is reunited with my Papi, who passed away thirty years ago.  And they are both comforted by the amazing beauty of our Lord & Savior, Jesus the Christ.  No regrets and little sadness.  Mostly I feel blessed to have her generosity & love all these years.
Here I'm posting a photo of her when she was a beautiful young heartbreaker in Bogota, Colombia.

My father flew to Bogota this morning.  I wish I could be there for her memorial & funeral, but it's just not possible. I will, however, pray for her soul in front of & with the company of, Jesus Christ tomorrow evening when I spend an hour with Him in front of the Blessed Sacrament at Eucharistic Adoration.  And of course, she is always in my prayers.  R.I.P. abuela.  I love you.  m//r

"UNEARTHED: A SHORT FILM" by Dalang Films // Independent Science Fiction

    [An excellent independent sci-fi film. Great ending!! ♥ m//r]


 

The Pain..... (an original poem & a SOIA song with it...)

.....it still lingers.  It probably won't  ever  go  away.
It's like a blanket I wear around me, all the time.
It's heavy. 
It hurts.
There is no "out."
What do others do?
What do YOU do?
My uncle took his life in 2011.
Some say he didn't end his pain.
He just passed it along to others.
I don't think he had the answer.
Who does?
What is it?
I look in the mirror & I see nothing.
Empty.
The Mirror of Emptiness.
It's gone.
It fled.
It left me behind.
The pain it still lingers.
God knows. 
God knows it still lingers.

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this sums it all up...SOIA  SICK OF IT ALL

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Annunaki Don't Watch this Film!!! (great short documentary movie!!!)

SLAPSHOT "Insomnia" Get into it! ~

From the most hated SLAPSHOT album, "Unconsciousness" produced by the almighty Steve Albini.  Albini was, of course, the genius behind BIG BLACK, RAPEMAN, and SHELLAC.  He also played in PEGBOY for a bit. PEGBOY is ex-NAKED RAYGUN, of course.  Well this SLAPSHOT album does have a few gems on it, but "Insomnia" is not one of them.  It is an Ok song though.   Mos def weird for this "straightedge hardcore" powerhouse to write these kind of songs. Enjoy! m//r


 

A Plethora of New Buddhist Books--

Hot damn on fire!  Yesterday saw the arrival of seven awesome Buddhist books from the monks of the Thai Forest tradition monastery in Redwood, California!!  
I also picked up a few great titles from a used bookstore.  These are mostly of the contemplative & mystical Christian tradition.  My spiritual collection is coming along nicely.  I'm am surely blessed to have a veritable library of knowledge at my fingertips!!  That to a lifetimes' worth of reading material.  I shall not be bored again.  This is love m//r

Book List Book List Book List Book List Book List--

Holy smokes! Dug out three more boxes of books from storage!  Including doubles & triples of a few.  Those will go to my friends Catholic Men's House, "Friends of the Master" in Ypsilanti.  I've already donated around one hundred books to them, with about another hundred waiting to be transported.
I've decided I need to really make a serious inventory of what's here. And it's just as easy to put it on my blog as it is to put it in one of my hand-written journals. Wish me luck! m//r

note: I am NOT including novels & fiction (for the most part)

"Journey into Orthodox Alaska" A BEAUTIFUL short film--

"Ancient Voyages to America: Who Were The First Explorers?"

Some More Reading Material Worth Mentioning--

This week the mailman brought me the new issue of "Sophia: Journal of the Melkite Catholic Church."  I plan on writing more about this real soon, because this issue is full of excellent articles (many of them reprinted from other more obscure & hard to find sources.)  Some great features about the work our new Pope & others in the Roman Catholic & Eastern Catholic Churches are doing to attempt to heal the schism between us & our Orthodox Christian brothers & sisters.

I also received the new issue (a double issue at that!) of "Orthodox Word" published by the St. Herman of Alaska monastery in CA., as well as two other Eastern Orthodox journals from two other monasteries here in America.

"N.Y.H.C. Documentary" A Firm Classic in My Book!--

I love this movie! That kid from DISTRICT 9 is hilarious! It's either all the weed he smokes, or the angel dust he says he tried a few days ago, that's melting his mind! Anyhow, this is a classic. Right below "Another State of Mind" & "Suburbia" but not quite side-by-side with those two CLASSIC classics. You know what I mean. m//r
 

"Don't Watch This Film" [Anunnaki & The Origins of Humankind]

This is an incredibly succinct summary of the travails of mankind (humankind). 
I love this and you will too!  Keep an open mind & give yourself a break.
Always use love.  I love you, in case no one has told you that today!
Don't let the Zionist puppeteers & slave masters grind you down!
You are worth it.  WE are worth it.  m//r


  
Don't Watch this Film from LopezCarlos on Vimeo.

"American Nomads" Documentary & Learning "Patience"

This is great!

"Egypt Exposed: True Origins of Civilization By Robert Bauval" Fascinating Documentary Movie--

I love Robert Bauval & own a few of his books. The man is a genius & is looking for the truth. m//r

New Books Received & Many More on the Way a.k.a. "Why I'm Always Broke"--

Got a shit ton of new reading material to keep me busy! Almost finished with "The Celestine Prophecy" & still balls-deep in "Ishmael." Plus, trying to navigate my way around two dozen other books that I continually revisit. 

SHAM 69: "Adventures Of SHAM 69" Awesome Newer Documentary & Concert--

Ishmael--

Started reading the book, "Ishmael" yesterday.
Cant. Stop. Reading. It. 
Great book so far!  I can't believe I slept on this for a decade now.

"She's My Ex" by the Fabulous ALL (DESCENDENTS)--

"She's my ex. I can't cross her from my memory
She meant everything to me she meant every word she said
When she said, "I'll never love again. Be my ex until the end."
And I know I'll never feel that way again
She's just my ex
She's my ex. She marks the spot where I'm the weakest one
I can't expect she'll change her ways; can't accept the things she's done
She's just my ex. Nothing more nothing less but she'll always be my ex
She's my ex. Don't cross her path she still belongs to me
She'll be my ex till I say when till I get her back again
'Cause I know I'll never love again. Never need another friend
And I know I'll never feel this way again
She's my ex. She'll cross my mind a thousand times today
Still have a million things to say, guess I'm better off this way
Cause I know she'll never love again. She

She'll be my ex until the end
And I know I'll never feel this way again
She's just my ex. Nothing more nothing less but she's still my ex
And I, and I could never kiss that face goodbye
But I, but I could never stop to wonder why
She looks so pretty, she looks so pretty
And I know I'll never feel this way again
She's just my ex..."

"The Arena" by St. Ignatius Brianchaninov--

Got this in the mail a few days ago!  A book I've been wanting to read & own for a couple of years now, "The Arena" by St. Ignatius Brianchaninov.  Reprinted by Holy Trinity Orthodox Monastery.

[Amazon link to review book]

Read, Read, Read...Turn OFF the T.V.--

Sunday evening: The verdict was handed down in the murder trial of Trayvon Martin last night: G. Zimmerman was found not guilty. Que sera sera.
Started working at the Ann Arbor Art Fair 2013 today. As usual it's hot hot hot out there! Sunny, humid days are what's in store for me over the next six days--YUCK! But it's gonna' pay the bills, put food in my belly, and keep my hands occupied for a bit. We'll see where life takes me next! Had a nice time at Holy Mass this morning, glad I went. For some reason though, all day today I was deep in thought about my ex girlfriend. It comes & goes.....the loneliness that is. Not even loneliness so much. Mostly that I really, really miss that gal. I know I know, I've spent plenty of time bitching about her, but it really wasn't all that bad at all. I soooo loved that fuckin' woman! In fact I still do. I am still holding onto to some kind of hope. Some kind of hope that she'll come around. That she'll call me or text me or respond to my emails. I just really miss her & our Saturday night "date nights!" I miss talking to her & being in her company, dammit!

What I'm reading this weekend:

"The High Priests of War"
  -by M. Collins Piper
[Amazon link to book preview]

DREAM Psychedelic & Acid Folk-Rock Magazine--

"DREAM" Psychedelic Folk / Acid Rock Magazine (link)

Some New Books & Other Goodies--(updated 07/14/13)

Got some outstanding new books in the mail last week. My bookshelves are swollen over capacity and it's high-time I found a new storage system! Does anybody else find it extremely difficult to store books away in boxes or in a distant storage unit?  I'm the kind of person who MUST have his books at arm's length all the time.  I tend to easily forget about what I own if I don't have it nearby to remind me!  Thus, I've been known to double-purchase a book, 'zine, or record before!  LOL, it's a waste of energy & money to buy something more than once!  Anyhow, here's what's new (to me) over the past couple of weeks.  m//r

Gnosis - Pyramid Code Complete Series | Documentary

This is a great documentary! Watch, learn & enjoy. m//r 

 

"Punk: The Early Years" Old Documentary--

Such an awesome documentary movie, start to finish!!! I love this! 

 

Hardcore: Love It Or Leave It--

Great quote here.  Stolen from the Radio Silence site--

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In the late 1960s, two bands hailing from Michigan laid the groundwork for punk. The Motor City Five and The Stooges aren’t the center ring on punk’s tree, but they stand as the most recognizable starting point. Both bands’ revved-up version of the blues garnered attention, major label deals, and devout fans, but the landscape wasn’t yet ripe for a revolution. Ultimately, a shitload of heroin and the typical cast of clueless suits caused both bands to end prematurely.

And while wearing swastikas for shock value, disrespecting the Royal Family, and displaying a disdain for anything considered “normal” was punk’s calling card, its roots remained firmly in the streets of New York, the art scene of Los Angeles, and London fashion; places totally foreign to kids in suburban America. As romantic as it was to be a starving artist living like shit in New York City most kids just fucking hated their parents and liked to light fires in the woods.

As punk migrated to the suburbs the sound and attitude changed. Something snapped in American culture; kids who loved the speed and fuck you attitude of punk took hold of its spirit, got rid of the “live fast, die young” bullshit and made a revision: hardcore. It wasn’t a direct fuck you to punk’s aesthetic and sound, hardcore was moving too fast to give a shit. With an actor elected as President and a defense initiative named after Star Wars, the decade was as dire as it was absurd. Cocaine was huge, AIDS surfaced as global epidemic, and the suburbs were really fucking boring. Hardcore’s direct and naïve stood out as the most honest commentary put to music at the time.

- Anthony Pappalardo, Instinct and Attitude: The Art of Necessity

TERROR "Never Alone" Lyrics...

I still think TERROR are  one of the best bands in the hardcore scene....if there IS such a thing as a scene anymore.  Scott Vogel, singer of TERROR, is a dude who's my age (early 40's) & has been playing in hardcore bands since 1990 or so.  I know he played drums in FADEAWAY, then sang for SLUGFEST, DESPAIR, BURIED ALIVE, & presently TERROR for the past 12+ years.  He is one of the nicest, coolest, and most sincere people I've ever met!  I've seen most of his bands, dozens of times.  He really loves hardcore, probably as much as I do.  And to that end he's done a shit-ton of work, all in the name of hardcorepunk!  This song, "Never Alone" is on the album, "The Damned, The Shame" which came out in 2008 or so.  Solid album start to finish!  Keep on keepin' on...m//r

__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________Never alone!!!You've got to know...You're never alone!
So lost in these days, when there's nothing to believe.I couldn't see, couldn't breathI turned my back on everything.All my will, all my drive, put you to the test.When all that you love, all that you know is pushing you to your death.When you're down reach for me,With all you strength and I won't let go.It's you and me against this world.You've got to know that you're never alone!Never alone!You've got to know.....
You're never alone!In troubled times, I'll see you through.I feel the strains, the same pain that you do.When you're down reach for meWith all your strength and I won't let go.It's you and me against this world!You've got to know you & I are never alone.You've got to know!
Never alone!You've got to know!Never alone!

EMBASSY self-titled LP (More Excellent 90's Hardcore!)

Like the DOWNCAST records I also posted, this is 90's emotional hardcore (aka "emo") at it's finest! So much was great about that era of music & camaraderie in punk. I can't even adequately explain it most of the time. It's just a feeling that I'll always have with me. Now THAT sounds emo! m//r

DOWNCAST 7" & LP Records In Full Here-- (Great 90's hardcore!)

Well well well...I hadn't really listened to this 7" record in about 12+ years or so, but I played it yesterday, along with DOWNCAST's self-titled album.  The music is on my hard drive, and it's labelled as the "original mix."  So I guess it was re-mixed (and maybe remastered?) and re-released.  I don't know for sure, but there was probably a situation where the whole band thought the original mix "can suck it" so they reinterpreted the record for future pressings.  This is what JUDGE did, eh?  The Chung King produced album mix wasn't up to speed--well either the mix or simply a shitty recording.  So JUDGE went ahead & re-recorded the album & thus "Bringing It Down" was born!  And Revelation Records pressed up 100 copies of the og mix, making it a collectors item!  Someone told me recently that a "Chung King Can Suck It" album went for $3,500 on Ebay!!! Holy shitzzle!  
But this post is about DOWNCAST  not JUDGE.  This raw-as-fuck recording is bloody powerful!!!  I'm digging it & feel the emotion seething through.  Good, good stuff!  Early 90's emotional-political-hardcore at it's finest! m//r






P.S. I'm sure you can find a download link somewhere. I did.

The Thai Buddhist Forest Tradition, Thudong: Forest Monks and Hermits of...

"Mystery of the Man Who Fell to Earth" Short BBC Story--

This is just plain weird with a large dose of sad. African man falls from a passenger airline & lands in a British street. Apparently he was a stowaway in the plane's landing gear compartment and when the plane was preparing to land & the wheels lowered, he fell to earth. WOW.

UFOs Crop Circle In depth view Live Crop Circle made by UFO and Crop Cir...

This is incredible! Watch are UFO "orbs" make beautiful crop circle patterns in a wheat field. Amen. m//r

New Books That Have Arrived in the Mail--

Let me just say that I STILL LOVE getting mail! Real, physical, tangible mail.  "Snail-mail" so to speak. [I wonder where that term first originated? And by whom?]  In the early to mid 90's I had a post office box (p.o. box), especially useful when I was doing 'Book of Lies' fanzine (which incidentally never actually got finished & printed. In many ways this blog is a continuation of that 'zine) & receiving lots & lots of mail, music for review, letters, and ads for records & labels. Over a fifteen year period or so I had two different p.o. boxes. Nowadays the mail just gets delivered to my house & is more convenient than having to go check the ole' p.o. box everyday or so.  But little else has changed & I still get excited whenever the mail lady comes! I'm blessed to receive so many books, magazines, journals, fanzines, & letters! But in my insatiable thirst, it's still 'never enough.'  This is one of my biggest character defects. And believe me, I'm working on it (kind of).
Here are several books that I've received over the past week. m//r

Cleveland Bound Death Sentence Discography CD--

A masterpiece!!
Aaron Cometbus, the author/artist/mastermind behind Cometbus fanzine, plays drums in this band and wrote many of the lyrics!  He also played drums in legendary punkrock band, CRIMPSHRINE in the late 80's/early 90's (at least I THINK that's when they were active! Check the Lookout Records website from more info on CRIMPSHRINE.  Also check the Microcosm Publishing & Distro site for info on Cometbus 'zine!)  If you are NOT familiar with Cometbus, than I don't even know what to tell you.  Cometbus is one of the greatest fanzines ever produced!  Aaron's writing is just so awesome & he is hands down the BEST storyteller I've ever come across!  He's been doing the 'zine since the early 80's as well as being active in the punk scene.  From what I know, CLEVELAND BOUND DEATH SENTENCE is kind of a "superstar of punk" band.  At least one, if not two, of the members are also in Minneapolis punk-pop legends DILLINGER FOUR!  Get into it!  And get the CRIMPSHRINE album, "Duct Tape Soup" or the 7" record, "Sleep, What's That?" 

"ST. NIKOLAI THE SERB" Great Documentary On This Orthodox Saint!--

DISCHARGE "Fight Back E.P." 1980 This is the tits!--

This is an awesome 7" record!!! I've gotta' be honest & say that I never got into these guys back in the 80's when I first discovered hardcorepunk. I can't say why & I just don't know. I dove head first (pun intended!) into hardcore & punk as a kid, but there's only so much you can hear in one era of life! Thank God for the internet & file sharing in 2013! But yeah, this is a classic record. The true originators of the style known as "D-Beat hardcore." Man, it seems like DISCHARGE released (pun intended, again! get it...) a shit-ton of 7" records in a very short amount of time. I'm going to post a lot of them as I find 'em. Get into it, NOW!!! m//r Take care of each other & the planet.

 

BAD BRAINS Live in Florida,1987--

-----> Edit June 22, 2013: Here we have an incredible set from BAD BRAINS in 1987!!!  This show starts off with an extremely pumped up HR at his finest! He knows all the lyrics, sings them just like on the album, & is chock full of energy! I love it! This video is about a year before I got to see BAD BRAINS for the first (& only???) time, here in Detroit at the legendary St. Andrew's Hall! I remember going to the show with, I think, Marshall Grady, Josh Rousseau  and Tatha Carli (R.I.P.).  Yeah, it was '88 or '89....That was such a fantastic fun-filled night! The club reeked of marijuana smoke, and there were positive vibes amongst all the punks, skins, hardcore kids, hippie-ish pseudo rasta's, and various other folks in the crowd. BB were at their peak, IMHO. The played a set, took a 15 minute break and then played the rest of their set! I remember a guy I knew from Ann Arbor was in the pit barefoot!!! LOL, yeah kinda' weird. Only at a BAD BRAINS show! Everyone knows that they kinda' went downhill after that. Not immediately after, but soon enough. HR lost his mind and went off the deep end. 
About ten years ago a friend saw them play and HR was wearing a motorcycle helmet singing to an imaginary bird in a birdcage he was holding! Haha!!! Also, HR doesn't seem to remember his own lyrics or even care enough to try miming them.  I will say that the rest of the band still seem to rip just as hard as they did in 1982! 
OK friends, enjoy this video.  I've got a bunch of stuff to do here at the MASS//RETALIATION HQ, sorting through thousands of books & fanzines from the past 30 years of my life.  I'll post more about this later. m//r