New Books I'm Reading--

Police & Thieves Songs from a Live Radio Show Broadcast // Check Out this Amazing Newer Hardcore Band!!

The Earth But Not As We Know It

FIRST BLOOD "Killafornia" 2006 Album!

"They drew first blood, not fuckin' me!!"  Such a great and underrated album.  I bought it as soon as it hit the stores, and jammed it non-stop for a month.  Great, great, great record!!

Some New Books Over the Past Few Weeks--

"Ritual America: Secret Brotherhoods & Their Influence on American Society"
-by A Parfrey & C. Heimbichner

"Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave"
  -by E.T. Welch

"Ancient Maya Women"
-by T. Arden

The Pain..... (an original poem & a SOIA song with it...)

.....it still lingers.  It probably won't  ever  go  away.
It's like a blanket I wear around me, all the time.
It's heavy. 
It hurts.
There is no "out."
What do others do?
What do YOU do?
My uncle took his life in 2011.
Some say he didn't end his pain.
He just passed it along to others.
I don't think he had the answer.
Who does?
What is it?
I look in the mirror & I see nothing.
Empty.
The Mirror of Emptiness.
It's gone.
It fled.
It left me behind.
The pain it still lingers.
God knows. 
God knows it still lingers.

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this sums it all up...SOIA  SICK OF IT ALL

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Current Playlist For the Soundtrack To My Life--

Do not be mistaken by this post, I am NOT suicidal.  Depressed some, maybe.  Pissed off & angry?
Yeah, some. I've been told by a couple of people lately that I seem to be "full of anger."  I wouldn't say that I'm full of anger though.  Like all human being, I am multi-faceted and at times a walking contradiction of myself.  I do want there to be love & understanding at every step of the way in my life.  I do want there to be peace everywhere in the world.  I do want for everyone to get along & work together for the common benefit.  But we all know that you can't always get what you want.  Even the ROLLING STONES knew that!  So some of the time I am extremely angry & bitter & some of the time I'm super positive, optimistic, happy & content.  I suppose that when I was younger, as a little punk rock teenager, I was very angry all the time.  That seemed to be the nature of being punk.  You were angry at society, the world, and the rulers of this fucked up system.  THAT's what punk rock was all about, or so I thought.
But now, today, being a bit older I don't necessarily see things the same way.  Also, being forced to play the hand I've been dealt has given me a different perspective on things.  However I suppose I'm a bit more outspoken when I'm angry, so I see how some friends could convict me of being "full of anger." Because, after all, when you stand accused of something, you must be ready to be convicted.
Still--as always--take care of each other & look out for one another. And enjoy the music here.
We're all in this together. m//r
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NEGLECT


COLD AS LIFE


NEGATIVE APPROACH



GBH


DANZIG

DEATH THREAT

SURFACE "My Own" // Excellent Metallic Emo Hardcore Circe 1990's

BENT WIND "Mistify" (1969) Canadian Heavy Psychedelic Band--[Awesome Music!!]