"Psychoactive Substances A Guide to Ethnobotanical Plants & Herbs, Synthetic Chemicals, Compounds & Products" free .pdf book

"Psychoactive Substances" free .pdf ebook! HUGE book full of tons of useful information. Harm Reduction at it's best.

Nikki Sixx: "The Heroin Diaries" free book in .pdf form (A Really Nicely Done Transfer!)

"The Heroin Diaries" by Nikki Sixx

I have yet to read his book.  To be honest I've tended to avoid it over the years beacuse I was told it wasn't well written and it simply meandered between terrible "smack" binges.  I'm reading bits of it currently.  Perhaps I'll snag a physical copy from one of the many dollar bins where I've eyeballed this book.  Nevertheless, Sixx is a survivor, and I earnestly believe he knows what he's writing about.  Perhaps that's what is scaring me the most....this is a topic near & dear to my hardened heart.  I've lost too many friends & family to this cunning disease of addiction & vice.   My book--God willing--will be available one day.  Stay free.  God is Love.  Trust Him.

Here's a nice excerpt that kinda' sums it all up: 
"Addiction was my downfall and yet it’s been the very
thing that has given me a spiritual connection and
awareness that I never thought existed. Quitting drugs and
alcohol was the hardest thing I’ve ever done and has given me the most satisfaction. I’m actually glad I’m an addict,
’cause through recovery I have the ability to give back."
Beautiful. Amen.


Taylor Marie, "Psychonaut" // Entheogen Content ~

Cool. I love the idea of "psychonauts" & safe and valuable uses entheogen drugs.
A good trip can be life-altering and deeply spiritual.  I don't know if I'll ever find one again...


BOB FRISSELL: Nothing To Something-- documentary!! [Alt Science]

"Nothing in this Book is True, but it's Exactly How Things Are" is an excellent book! I picked it up about two years ago. Bob Frisell is a wealth of knowledge!! Check it out!! 


INFEST Live Set From "Destroy LA 2013 Fest" Get Into It!! ~

This is just great! Excellent drummer, excellent sound, excellent show. Another band I didn't get into during their hey-day. Like 'em now.   Again, this fkn drummer!!  He looks to be in his late 40's, which he probably is, and he is playing on a little Fischer Price drum kit, but he's a fkn rager!  This is a bad-ass video.  The videographer has several full live sets up on YouTube.  I'm trying to watch all of his vids, and I will update this post with more of 'em.  Cheers, you bastards!



HARM'S WAY 3/23/13 at Refuge Skate Shop, Dearborn, MI ...The Heaviest Band Around Today!! // Couple of Recordings as Well--

Something about HARMS WAY (not to be confused (as if that were possible!) with the band of the same name from Ann Arbor back in the 80's - 90's) sound is really haunting & full. The sound in this live video is really, by the way. They almost sound like one continous chord is being played in the not-so-subtle background, while a mid-paced metallic hardcore band is jamming over it. Elements of HARVEST & GUILT (circa' "Synsthesia") come to mind, but with a more monotone vocal sound. The most memorable part of HW is the singer, John Cena incarnate as a metal head punk rock hardcore kid. That dude is beast! To mimic an overused adjective for him. I honestly haven't listened to much of their recorded stuff. Simply not enough time or maybe I haven't found a download for them yet. But this IS a band I would buy music from --both vinyl & CD. Money prevents me from doing this at the moment.
Anyhow, here's their first (I think) 7" record & another e.p. to check out.

CHAIN OF STRENGTH "True Till Death" circa 1988 [Full 7" ep] & Live at Destroy LA Fest 2013

Original 7" record. Sounds like it IS ripped straight from the vinyl! Meaning it sounds fkn great! I never got too into this band when they were around. In fact I think the first time I heard them was on the Revelation Records "In Flight" CD sampler they were sending out for free, back in 1995 or so. Watching the COS reunion shows video's over the past year has been great! (That sentence doesn't sound grammatically correct.) Certainly odd to see guys in their mid-40's still tearing things up, straightedge hardcore style. I'm gonna post the live at Destroy LA Fest 2013 video here. I love the drummer & the fully sound he gives the band. A different take on the simple hardcore beat.


STRONGARM "The Advent Of A Miracle" Lyrics!!

you're my beloved and all together lovely 

as a gift that cant't be bought 

as if gold could favor outweigh 

your meaning to me 

the secrets of the heart made manifest 

even beauty's priced beside thee proportioned lot the less 

wishes fade as dreams break promise made 

takes away your will
takes your whole heart 

just for one promise 

sell it all for one true word to hold on to 

face the shame of it all 

safer to neglect than open your callused heart 

piece by piece you have lost a part of yourself 

you share to gain but lose at love and learn to hate yourself 

more and more each day 

and all the days thereafter 

they labor to put back together and regain what is gone forever 

wishes fade as dreams break promise made tomorrow takes 

the most costly mistake is to try to change the past today
(what a void) 

the filth and the shame they all wash away
for you Christ will clean the slate 

only love can fill the void 

when the world has taken its toll 

hand in hand by your side
we'll walk down this path together 

i'll take you to the place where promises will never break 

to the advent of a miracle 

for love is a miracle 

true love is to die for
and is why i cry for you 

and the pain you feel and feed can heal
if you'd just walk with me toward the light" 

What I Was Reading for the Past 60 Minutes--

Every night I walk around my room (usually while in silent prayer) and read a little bit of one book or another.  For some reason I've always liked to read several things at the same time.  A few pages here, a few paragraphs there.....etc.  This is what I found myself reading tonight.  (I should mention the synchronicity involved in it all: I can't even recall how many times I'll read something in one book, magazine, or journal, and then read the same name, topic, or idea in another book.  Seemingly unrelated stuff: I watched a YouTube video that casually mentioned Erich vonDaniken, then later on I read the final footnotes of an article in the Orthodox Tradition journal that cited vonDaniken. Weird. There are many, many more instances of this, but I thought I'd mention this one for starters!  I love synchronicity!!)

"The Book of Confidence"  by Fr. Thomas de Saint-Laurent
"Orthodox Tradition" journal vol. XXXI, num. 1, 2014
"The Coptic Christian Heritage: History, Faith, and Culture" edited by Lois M. Farag
"Evangelicals and Tradition: The Formative Influence of the Early Church"  D.H. Williams
"Addictions, a Banquet in the Grave: Finding Hope in the Power of the Gospel" by Edward T. Welch
"In Communion, Journal of the Orthodox Peace Fellowship of the Protection of the Mother of God"  winter 2004 / Theophany
"On Christian Contemplation"  by Thomas Merton
"Saint Parthenios of Chios (1815 - 1883)" trans. by Fr. Nicholas Palis
"Byzantine Church & Culture" by Joseph Raya

Oh, and I'm ACTUALLY READING A NOVEL!!  "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho.  This also added to my 'synchronicity' in that within the first dozen pages the Sacred Heart of Jesus is mentioned several times, and just today I returned from a short visit to the Sacred Heart Center up in Memphis, MI!!   Someone shared at the AA meeting tonight that, "God is trying to tell me He wants to help me but I need to allow him to do it, through other people and situations."  Or something like that.  God, for me, is the Universe.  And Jesus.  All of Creation is God.  The Eternal, Vast, and Unlimited Universe is God.  He became man in the form of Jesus.  But since God can't be separated from His Creation (since that would take away from His Omnipotence), He is also His Creation. Synchronicity is God talking to me--to us.  Listen up!! 


How Much Does Thor's Hammer Weigh?

This is cool!

This Author is Awesome!! (Israel Book Content!)

The Power of Israel in the United States ( link)

If anyone truly knows the ins & outs of the Zionist stranglehold on America, it is this guy!!  He is new to me, and I have no idea why!


James Petras is a Bartle Professor (Emeritus) of Sociology at Binghamton 
University, New York. He is the author of 62 books published in 29 
languages, and over 560 articles in professional journals, including the 
American Sociological Review, British Journal of Sociology, Social 
Research, Journal of Contemporary Asia, and Journal of Peasant Studies. 
Journal of Peasant Studies.  He has published over 2000 articles in 
nonprofessional journals such as the New York Times, the Guardian, the 
Nation, Christian Science Monitor, Foreign Policy, New Left Review, Partisan 
Review, TempsModerne, Le Monde Diplomatique, and his commentary is 
widely carried on the internet.   His publishers have included Random 
House, John Wiley, Westview, Routledge, Macmillan, Verso, Zed Books and 
Pluto Books. He is winner of the Career of Distinguished Service Award from 
the American Sociological Association's Marxist Sociology Section, the 
Robert Kenny Award for Best Book, 2002, and the Best Dissertation, 
Western Political Science Association in 1968.

He has a long history of commitment to social justice, working in particular 
with the Brazilian Landless Workers Movement for 11 years. In 1973-76 he 
was a member of the Bertrand Russell Tribunal on Repression in Latin 
America. He writes a monthly column for the Mexican newspaper, Le 
Jornada, and previously, for the Spanish daily, El Mundo. He received his     
B.A. from Boston University and Ph.D. from the University of California at 


PROPAGANDHI "Today's Empires, Tomorrow's Ashes" (Entire, Full Album) Get Into It!!

I've always passed on PROPAGHANDI, slept on 'em, ignored them as another Fat Wreck band....NOFX wannabe's, too mainstream, etc. I heard the singer is in recovery from addiction. Oh wait, I did have one of their records, "How to Clean Everything," that I bought on vinyl from "Coffee Joe's" the record store / cafe that was in Ypsi's Depot Town for a short while. But I honestly MAYBE listened to it once, at the most. OK, recovery...."The Phenomenon of Craving?" Was that a song of theirs or an album? I need to look it up. But whatev's, this album is great! I hear some lyrics here about "straightedge," "eating mushrooms," and other relevant stuff.
There's only so many bands you can be into, right? I'm really glad I'm still alive! There's still TOOONNNNNN's of hardcore bands to hear! My goal in life is to listen to EVERY single hardcorepunk band ever formed & recorded.

(Audio only)

RVIVR Full Live Set Nov. 18, 2013 // Excellent Melodic Hardcore Punk Inside!! ♥

Great band! Hardcore & hardcorepunk. It's all the same. TERROR? BANE?! TRAPPED UNDER ICE? Hardcore. Hardcorepunk. RVIVR! It's all good to me. Some parts of RVIVR remind me of ooooold MONEEN. Weird. Weird that they sound like old MONEEN or that MONEEN was good at one point?! Both. Remember when SAVES THE DAY was good? '99....First two great albums. Then no more. None no more. 108. On top of the world or on your "Death Bed?" Death Bed, great song. Great watching live videos of that song from 1993. I was there, front & center. Always. SHELTER, 108, FALLING FORWARD, EMPATHY, CHOKEHOLD, STRIFE, INTEGRITY, it's all good. All good to me.


Secret Ancient knowledge exposed

I've watched this video several times & it never gets old. The previous video released was the same thing, only with a sped up, high pitch voice that was quite annoying. So much great info in here that I don't know where to start!? But remember, do your own investigating & take everything with a grain of salt. I know my Lord & Savior is Jesus Christ. God created everything, I'm just uncertain where the aliens and other extra-terestrials fit in, though I believe THEY DO! Pyramid builders...



Books, Books, Books...

I've been selling some of my books lately.  More will be sold in the coming weeks.  If I had the time or patience I'd be selling them online --either Amazon or Ebay.  I'm not talking about worn paperbacks or crappy generic books.  Mostly very specific topical academic & scholarly books.  Some of them I even have duplicates of!  But mostly just books that I don't find interesting anymore.  Books are really hard to sell these days.  Many of them I can only get $3 to $5 a piece.  Made $200 last week, which isn't that bad.  Probably $1000 worth of literature, but oh-well, I chose to let them go.  My buddy Jean, who owns & operates an awesome, cozy, medium sized antiquarian bookshop in Ann Arbor--Motte & Bailey--always gives me the best money for my books.  But he's only buying a really small, small amount of stuff right now.  He says business is just not good enough to throw out large amounts of cash on purchases.  I feel bad for him, 'cus his store is bad-ass and he's a nice guy, but we all know Amazon, Kindle, and other online retailers & electronic devices are encroaching on the printed book and the mom & pop bookstores.  UGGGHH!!  I hate it. Hate it.

Here's some other books recently obtained on my part:
Excellent. Monks discussing the Jesus Prayer & monasticism on Mt. Athos.  If you can
find this book, most definitely pick it up

Here we have vol.'s 1 & 2 of this now-classic book on the early

This is phenomenal!! Really heavy, thick book crammed full of primary sources
and stunning picture. Well, well worth it!  Get into it!!! 

Haven't read it yet, but the reviews have been positive. We'll see.

This book was given to me by surprise. A great read, though mainly
for folks who are new to Egyptology (like me!)

Just received this one. Read through parts of it. A beautiful looking book, made sturdy
with an excellent just jacket.

Just got this one on Friday, along with the History of Christianity in Asia, vol. 1 & 2 
My future ex-wife, Ann Coulter everyone! I love this woman!

WOW! A beautiful, huge & heavy book. So much great art throughout!

I've actually had this book for several years now. It's a really small
pocket sized book crammed full of loving information. Bravo! Get this
book if you can, by any means.

Excellent book about women's roles in Byzantium!

"Worms Fighting to the Death & Taking Over Human Minds!"

WOW! Check out this article on the Gnostic Warrior blog I subscribe to! This is just plain gross! Though I assume it's true, it sounds real far-fetched & out there. I already know I have a tape worm in me. Don't ask how I know, just believe me. It's gross & disgusting, yes, but I honestly think we ALL have them in us. Hmpff.....

 Worms Fighting to the Death & Taking Over Human Minds | [external link]


Binaural Beats Xanax (One hour)

Listen to this if you ever find yourself with a benzo habit & you're all out of Xanax bars! LOL, don't know if it's that effective, but it can't hurt, right? There's all kinds of 'Binaural Beats' to get into--that is to replace--your drug of choice! Keep an open-mind (and a good set of ear phones!) and find out which ones work for you. I don't have much faith in these things as a replacement for benzo's or opiates or whatever drug, but I do get something out of the relaxation & deep meditation Binaural Beats. Pretty neat.


RVIVR "Edge of Living" Live with Excellent Sound!!

RVIVR.....fuckin' awesome sing-along, catchy, DIY underground hardcorepunk band!! Someone turned me on to them about five years ago. I loaded their "Derailer" 7" record (ostensibly a record put out to benefit an indie bicycle sales/repair shop...thus the record title "Derailer") on to an old mp3 player but never listened to it. About three months later I was waiting at the bus stop and it was pouring rain, dark as hell, no jacket and of course no umbrella, when my mp3 player automatically played that 7". I was totally shocked at how good they are! This live clip has awesome sound also! Get into it!


"Wonder" Natalie Merchant on the David Letterman Show

♥♥♥ My other future ex wife.

Top Ten Perfect Albums

Got me thinking I hurriedly put this list together.  I could change it at any time. But I probably wont.....or maybe I will.....

MISFITS "Legacy of Brutality"
MISFITS "Walk Among Us"
SLAYER "Reign in Blood"
SAMHAIN "Initium"
The CLASH s/t
The CLASH "Give 'Em Enough Rope"
The CLASH "London Calling"
10,000 MANIACS "In My Tribe"

DAG NASTY "Can I Say?"
ALL "Allroy's Revenge"

10,000 Maniacs "In My Tribe"

Such a fantastic album!! Just what I needed tonight after speaking to my spiritual director. Hmmm....

Now I want to listen to some old R.E.M. Thank God for YouTube!!


Some More of the Books I've Received [pt.2]

Here they are, in no particular order:

"A Life Together: Wisdom of Community from the Christian East"
  --by Bishop Seraphim Sigrist

"Confession of Faith, of our Righteous God-bearing Father Nikodemos the Hagiorite"
  --trans by Fr. George Dokos

"Thinking About Suicide: Contemplating and Comprehending the Urge to Die"
  --by D. Webb

"The Jesuits: The Society of Jesus and the Betrayal of the Roman Catholic Church"
  --by M. Martin

"On the Edge of Reality: Hidden Technology, Powers of the Mind, Quantum Physics, Paranormal Phenomena, Orbs, UFOs, Harmonic Transmissions, and Crop Circles"
  --by C. Andrews & S. Andrews

"The Columbia History of Jews & Judaism in America"
  --ed. by Marc Lee Raphael

"Consciousness Reconsidered"
  --by O. Flanagan

"The Coptic Christian Heritage: History, Faith, and Culture"
  --ed. by L.M. Farag

"Mankind Beyond Earth: The History, Science, and Future of Human Space Exploration"
  --by C.A. Piantadosi

"Worlds Without End: The Many Lives of the Multiverse"
  -- by M.J. Rubenstein

"Love Without Conditions"
  --by P. Ferrini

"The Hidden Gospel: Decoding the Spiritual Message of the Aramaic Jesus"
  --by N.D. Klotz

"A New History of Early Christianity"
  --by C. Freeman

"Viral Mythology: How the Truth of the Ancients Was Encoded & Passed Down Through Legend, Art, & Architecture"
  --by M.D. Jones & L. Flaxman

"The Christ Connection: How the World Religions Prepared the Way for the Phenomenon of Jesus"
  --by R.A. Varghese

"Opium: Reality's Dark Dream"
  --by T. Dormandy

"This Sacred Earth: Religion, Nature, Environment"
  --ed. by R.S. Gottlieb

"Abba, Give Me a Word: The Path of Spiritual Direction"
  --by L.R. Owens

"The Origins of Jewish Mysticism"
  --by P. Schafer

"Fifty Key Christian Thinkers"
  --ed. by P. McEnhill & G. Newlands

"Fleeing Herod: A Journey Through Coptic Egypt with the Holy Family"
  --by J. Cowan

"The Other Gospels: Accounts of Jesus from Outside the New Testament"
  --ed. & trans. by B. Ehrman & Z. Plese

"Consciousness: An Introduction"
  --by S. Blackmore

"An Unconventional History of Western Philosophy: Conversations Between Men & Women Philosophers"
  --ed. by K.J. Warren

"Critically Reading the Theory and Methods of Archaeology, an Introductory Guide"
  --G. Gibbon

"Globalization: East & West"
  --by B.S. Turner & H.H. Khondker

"How God Became Jesus: The Real Origins of Belief in Jesus' Divine Nature"
  --by Bird, Evans, Gathercole, Hill, and Tilling

"Zen and Psychotherapy"
  --by C.J. Mruk & J. Hartzell

"Philosophy of Dreams"
  --by C. Turcke

"In  Search of the Early Christians"
  --by W.A. Meeks

"New Testament & Christian Apocrypha"
  --by F. Bovon

"Introducing the Apocrypha: Message, Context, and Significance"
  --by David A. deSilva

"Pelerinaj Muntele Athos" (trans: Pilgrimage to Mount Athos)

Beautiful video in Romanian (I think). The Holy Mount Athos, located on a Greek peninsula. I have a healthy obsession with this land. I hope to visit there one day, God willing. Enjoy this vid, even though you don't speak Romanian. ♥


"The Light of the Desert" Documentary on St Macarius Monastery, Egypt

Such a terrific documentary. I love it.


Let Me Tell You About the Great Books I've Received Lately [pt.1]

Sooo many great books have arrived in my mailbox lately, that I almost don't even know where to begin! 
These are in no particular order.  Just like everything else in my life.

"Hitler's Master of the Dark Arts: Himmler's Black Knights & the Occult Origins of the SS"
  --by B. Yenne

"Alternatives to Hitler: German Resistance Under the Third Reich"
  --by H. Mommsen

"Introducing the Apocrypha"
  --by David A. deSilva

"The Life of Adam & Eve and Related Literature"
  --by M. deJonge & J. Tromp

"Imago Dei: The Byzantine Apologia for Icons"
  --by J. Pelikan

"Loyal Soldiers in the Cocaine Kingdom: Tales of Drugs, Mules, and Gunmen"
  --by Alfredo Molano

"Cross and Kremlin: A Brief History of the Orthodox Church in Russia"
  --by T. Bremer

"Spiritual Bankruptcy: A Prophetic Call to Action"
  --by J.B. Cobb Jr.

"Einstein Before Israel: Zionist Icon or Iconoclast"
  --by Z. Rosenkranz

"The Apocryphal Gospels: Texts & Translations"
--by B.D. Ehrman and Z. Plese

"A Concise History of the Crusades"
  --by T.F. Madden

"The Collected Teachings of Ajahn Chah"
  --by A. Chah

"New Testament and Christian Apocrypha"
  --by F. Bovon

"The Devil Within: Possession & Exorcism in the Christian West"
  --B.P. Levack

"The Formation of the Jewish Canon"
  --by T.H. Lim

"Egypt: A Short History"
  --by R. Tignor

"The 10,000 Year Explosion: How Civilization Accelerated Human Evolution"
  --by G. Cochran & H. Harpending

"Elder Zenobius: A Life in Spiritual Continuity with Pre-Revolutionary Russia"
  --by Z. Chesnokov

"Intoxicating Minds: How Drugs Work"
  --by C. Regan

"Paul and the Miraculous: A Historical Reconstruction"
  --by G.H.Twelftree

"The Dead Sea Scrolls: A Biography
  --by J.J. Collins

"The Tibetan Book of the Dead: A Biography"
  --by D.S. Lopez, Jr.

"Tales of Moonlight & Rain"
  --by Ueda Akinari

"Behind Locked Doors: A History of the Papal Elections"
  --by F.J. Baumgartner

"Evangelicals and Tradition: The Formative Influence of the Early Church"
  --by D.H. Williams

"The King Who Refused to Die: The Anunnaki & The Search for Immortality"
  --by Z. Sitchin

"Mankind Beyond Earth: The History, Science, and Future of Human Space Exploration"
  --by Claude A. Piantadosi

"Twilight of the Mammoths: Ice Age Extinctions and the Rewilding of America"
  --by P.S. Martin

"The Pope Who Quite: A True Medieval Tale of Mystery, Death, & Salvation"
  --by J.M. Sweeney

"Confessions of an English Opium-Eater & Other Writings"
  --by T. DeQuincey

"Voyages of the Pyramid Builders: The True Origins of the Pyramids from Lost Egypt to Ancient America"
  --by R.M. Schoch, Ph.D.

"Desert Christians: An Introduction to the Literature of Early Monasticism"
  --by W. Harmless, S.J.

"Getting to Know the Church Fathers: An Evangelical Introduction"
  --by Bryan M. Litfin

"The Columbia History of Jews & Judaism in America"
  --ed by M.L. Raphael

"Ancient Near Eastern Texts: Sources for the Study of the Old Testament"
  --by M.D. Coogan

"Thought and Knowledge: An Intro to Critical Thinking"
  --by D.F. Halpern

"The Source Field Investigations"
  --by D. Wilcock

"Across Atlantic Ice: The Origin of America's Clovis Culture"
  --by Stanford & Bradley

"Medieval Christianity in Practice"
  --by Rubin

  --by J. Lipner

"Warrior Women: An Archaeologist's Search for History's Hidden Heroines"
  --by J. Davis-Kimball, Ph.D.

"Encounters With Orthodoxy"
  --by Burgess

"Travels in Siberia"
  --by Ian Frazier

"How God Became Jesus"
  --by Bird

"Hitler & Nazi Germany"
  --by S. J. Lee

"The Judas Syndrome: Why Good People Do Bad Things"
  --by Simon

"A History of Christian Thought in One Volume"
  --by J.L. Gonzalez

"Psychiatric Drug Withdrawal"
  --by Breggin

"Exceptional Creativity in Science and Technology"
  --ed by A. Robinson

"Cave, Refectory, Road: Monastic Rhythms for Contemporary Living"
  --by Ian Adams

"The Friars: The Impact of the Mendicant Orders on Medieval Society"
  --by C.H. Lawrence

"Miracles Happen: The Transformational Healing Power of Past-Life Memories"
  --by B.L. Weiss, M.D.

"Hooked on Heroin: Drugs and Drifters in a Globalized World"
  --by P. Lalander

"Fleeing Herod: A Journey Through Coptic Egypt with the Holy Family"
  --by J. Cowan

"The Christ Connection: How the World Religions Prepared the Way for the Phenomenon of Jesus"
  --by R.A. Varghese

"A Life Together: Wisdom of Community from the Christian East"
  --by Bishop Seraphim Sigrist

"Love Without Conditions"
  --by P. Ferrini