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Sophie's Floorboard: More Than Life: More Than Life are a five-piece melodic hardcore band from South West, United Kingdom that formed in 2007. Since then, they've come ...

R.I.P. Charlie Anderberg [I Miss You & I Love You]

Anderberg, Charles Andrew Charles Andrew Anderberg was born March 23, 1975 in Salina, Kansas, and died September 4, 2014 in Fort Myers, Florida. Raised in Houston, TX and Ann Arbor, MI, Charlie was a graduate of Fr. Gabriel Richard High School, Ann Arbor (1993). Charlie graduated Cum Laude with a B.S. in Social Work from Eastern Michigan University (2009) and completed his Masters in Social Work at Barry University, Miami, FL (2010). Charlie made it his life's mission to help and be of service to others who were suffering and in pain. He said that he saw the face of Jesus in each person he served. In 8 years of hard-won sobriety, Charlie completed his education and worked for the Michigan Prisoner Re-entry Initiative, the Delonis Center Homeless Shelter in Ann Arbor, and the Veteran's Administration in Homeless Veteran Outreach in Miami and Ft. Myers. Charlie was preceded in death by his brother, Tim Anderberg. He is the beloved son of Roger and Lorrie Anderberg, brother of Christi Mangan, Claire Anderberg, and Therese Anderberg, uncle of Eva, Camilla, Anastasia, and Xavier Mangan, nephew, cousin, and true friend to many who love him and grieve his passing. A Memorial Mass will be held at Christ the King Catholic Church, 4000 Ave Maria Drive, Ann Arbor on Saturday, September 20th, with recitation of the rosary at 12:15 p.m. In lieu of flowers, please make donations to the Delonis Center Homeless Shelter in Ann Arbor. "Then [Jesus] will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father. Inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, a stranger and you welcomed me, naked and you clothed me, ill and you cared for me, in prison and you visited me. ...Amen, I say to you, whatever you did for one of these least brothers of mine, you did for me.'" Mt. 25: 34-40. Please visit Charlie's tribute page to share a memory at www.niefuneralhomes.com

"Ancient Secrets: Intelligent Design on Earth" [Full Length Video]

An enjoyable full-length conspiracy docu-thriller. Check it out, it's worth your two & a half hours...

Some New Books Over the Past Few Weeks--

"Ritual America: Secret Brotherhoods & Their Influence on American Society"
-by A Parfrey & C. Heimbichner

"Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave"
  -by E.T. Welch

"Ancient Maya Women"
-by T. Arden

Video "Quaerere Deum: Documentary of Italian Monastery"

Beautiful & amazing! I truly, truly want to live in a monastery like this.  I think it's been my dream for years now.   And meditating on my life over the past seven years, I am convinced that God has been priming me for this kind of life (though I could always be wrong!)  My interest in books, music, philosophy, women (and lack of them!), etc.  Too many things are pointing to the monastic life.  Of course I may simply be thinking out loud right now.  But in all earnestness, this kind of life looks appealing and amazing to me.  The simple idea of giving up everything to live a life of solitude for the Lord, all feels so natural to me. My personal daily written journal has much more on this topic.  I am not comfortable yet revealing too much here on the interwebz.

Please watch this video if you have 45 minutes to spare from your hectic all-important life.

MUNICIPAL WASTE "The Fatal Feast"

One of the greatest of the 'thrash revival' bands! I love 'em! Kick-ass video to boot! Get into it you slobs, crackheads, and prostitutes!

Perpetual Depression....

I feel like I am stuck in some kind of "depression bubble."  I don't really know how to 
adequately explain it.  A looong, drawn out, mild-ish perpetual depressed feeling.  Not 
a heavy duty, suicidal type of depression, but a persistent "state of the blues."  Frankly
I'm becoming sick & tired of it.  It also doesn't feel the same as S.A.D. --"Seasonal Affect-
ive Disorder."  I'm all too familiar with that one--it comes to me almost EVERY single 
winter.  This is more of a prolonged loneliness mixed with a long case of the blues one 
gets with opiate withdrawal, if you've ever experienced that.  I can't succinctly explain it
but I think that Wm. S Burroughs does a good job of it in his book "Junky."  And I also can't
remember off the top of my head exactly what he says, I just remember reading that book a 
few times and thinking, "this makes complete sense to me. I understand."  Yeah it sounds
odd that I can't remember what he wrote, yet I CAN remember agreeing with it!  Tho to
me that's one sign of a good writer --you don't remember what he wrote, but you DO
remember sympathizing or agreeing with it!   Back to my depression: what the heck is it
and how do I get rid of it?  I have tried every known anti-depressant under the sign and 
every combination thereof--nothing seems to work for any extended period of time.  Some
work for a few months, then the side effects inevitably force me to stop taking the meds. 
I will say that if it wasn't for my involvement in my church & the fact that I'm Catholic I
firmly believe that I would be much worse off than I am.  Also, I will say that when I have
been more involved in Alcoholics Anonymous I usually feel more pleasant & "upbeat." 
Maybe that's it, maybe that's my solution: getting back to regular AA meetings and trying
to go to mass once or twice during the week.  Yeah, I think that's worth giving a shot.  Heck,
they are both free with no strings attached.  Also, some more time set aside for serious prayer
with the Lord will do me good.  
I've tried & tried & tried. All I can do is keep trying. I miss so many friends & so many lovers. It seems like I'll never get back what I once had. 

ttt♥♥♥

Broken Computer & RANCID & Joe Strummer

  (a gaggle of thoughts for the day & week).....OK, this has me somewhat upset.  
My computer is 18 months old & I've never had any
problems with it until recently.  Not only do I have at least two nasty STD's on the 
computer, but the power jack is broken!!! :)   The cord won't stay plugged into the 
laptop.  It appears to be loose and it must be wiggled and HELD in just the right way
in order to charge the battery!!!  Kinda' like how your old Walkman headphone jack
would always become loose with age (like my women!) and you'd only get sound out
of one earphone! (Ironically this happened last year with my cheap mp3 player I own!)
I remember holding the plug at a 90 degree angle to get sound from both sides of the 
headphones!  So I've been trying that with the power jack/plug on my laptop.  It WAS
working for a bit.  Now it's become so loose it's very precariously holding in there!  I even
tried a new cord/plug from another laptop my friend has, and that one did the same thing
so now I know it's the jack on my computer not the plus & cord!  UGGGGHHH!  That 
will be a pain in the butt to replace.  Gonna' have to open the laptop and exchange the jack.
My brother can do it for only the cost of a new jack.  I hope it will be that simple, but the
way my life is going it is sure to be more complicated than that.
So I sit at home after a snoozy week, listening to & watching the "Give 'Em the Boot"
DVD put out by Hellcat Recs. & Tim Armstrong (RANCID).   He owns & runs Hellcat
Recs. and they are one of the best semi-independent record labels in the world.
RANCID, Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros,  TRANSPLANTS, US BOMBS, TIGER
ARMY,  and a slew of other bands/artists are on this DVD.  I bought it new on Amazon
for $2 bux a few months ago.  I now have a giant 1080p HD TV in my room so the DVD
looks & sounds great!  I had it cranked singing along to "Rudy Can't Fail" from a live show
from Joe Strummer (R.I.P.)   Damn, I miss you Joe!
I am glad to be home. I got homesick after a few days away on retreat.  (Beautiful Benedic-
tine monastery up in Oxford, MI!)  I came back yesterday a tad bit earlier than expected.
Saw 'Django Unchained' last night with my friend & got very little sleep cuz of bloody insomnia!  Oh snap, made it to Mass this morning  
with nothing on my heart or my lips to confess.  I love doing the 
right thing & loving God.  It pays off.  I had been exceptionally depressed over the past
several months.  The main reason for my retreat was to sort some things out in my head
& in my soul.  I did just that, with my God & my Creator & my Sustainer.   I know what 
to do now.  I know which path to take and which way to go. It's not the one I wanted to
traverse.  Nor with the person I initially wanted to be with for the rest of my life.  I'm not
gonna' say something cheesy like, "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade."  But I
will say that I am going to continue moving forward.  I am very blessed to have every-
thing in life that I do.  I am going to make the best of it.  My sobriety is my number one
priority & focus!  All other things are in a close second.  It's as if my life were a triangle
and 'Sobriety' is on the top. (That means: God, church, AA fellowship, 12 steps, etc) and 
family, lovers, friendship, and job are directly underneath.  It actually works out very well
and I've traversed this path before.  Thank God I'm not alone on it. ♥