"Cuba 2012" A Fabulous BBC Documentary!!

Great documentary!! The ballerina he interviews at around 7:00 minutes is so adorably, beautifully, cute & perfect!!  I honestly have the biggest crush on this Spanish piece of art right now!!  I suddenly have the urge to explore & learn more about the Cuban ballet!!  I could use a piece of positivity, especially after watching that disgusting documentary about the chick who had six nose job & is going for her seventh!!  Uggggghh!!   Disgusting!! What the heck is wrong with people, that they would spend thousands & thousands of dollars on fucking tummy tucks, nose jobs, chin lifts, forehead folds, and all that other b.s.??  Excuse me, but is there something I'm missing here?!?  LOL, I have seen these documentaries before--the woman who thinks she is faaaaaat, when she weighs 68 pounds! "Addicted to Surgery" with that crazy lady who has had almost 100 surgeries to date, and she, "STILL wants mooooore!" (With the whiniest & creepiest damn voice ever, since her larynx was damaged by going under the knife!!)
Yeah, I get addiction (duh!) I get low self-esteem. I get agoraphobia. But c'mon, get real. Some of these women are very, very pretty. Who cares if you don't look exactly like that shitty reality TV chick? Who cares if you are a little "thick?!" Deal with it. Don't spend your hard earned money on stupid plastic surgery!! That's completely nuts. I've been thinking about this a lot lately....especially as I've been getting older myself, getting chubbier (not getting a chubby....LOL) more out of shape, etc. Then I watch this Cuba documentary.....a piss poor country, with this absolutely stunningly beautiful ballerina who probably has sub-optimal equipment & paraphernalia, who probably HASN'T had a bunch of disgusting nose jobs, tummy tucks, etc. And probably relies on good ole' hard work to get where she is. Amazing/unfuckinbelievable.  At the same time!

Just watch this doc: Cuba is so beautiful!! I despise Communism, Bolshevism, Socialism, and any other kind of fascist b.s. government & state sponsored crap!! About as deplorable as Zionism, which is actually WORSE than National Socialism, aka Nazism. Fodder for another rant, I suppose. My belief & hope: "Cuba: America's 51st State!"
Love you, xoxoxoxo


Jim Marrs "Our Occulted History"

A neat presentation based on Jim Marrs' most recent book, "Our Occulted History."

?? Where Do I Begin [ And Where Do I End? ] // The Gospel of St. Luke & Holy Mass Today--

Ahhhhh, a gloomy, dark, rainy, overcast, chilly, windy Sunday.  Woke up early, shave, shower, and dressed.  I went to my old house last night & picked up my mail (four new books had arrived) and several articles of clothing.  Needed some of my dress shirts & slacks (anyone who knows me, knows that I rarely get dressed up) to wear to Mass today.  I also grabbed two dozen other books & magazines from my piles upon piles of "stuff."  Anyhow, as I said it was a nasty day today--I am drained of all motivation & energy--but still made it to church.  And I'm glad I did!  Yes, it is a "mortal sin" to miss Sunday Mass for no real reason at all.  Though certainly God knows what's on my heart & what all I have been going through (can anyone say "Suboxone withdrawal" please?) & only HE can judge me & decide if I commit a mortal sin by missing Mass.  Okay, okay, it was a great "service" today!  (Wow that sounds real Protestant of me!)  Father Ed wasn't there, so Father Pat said Mass.  Fr. Pat is a British man, with a HEAVY accent.  It is real hard to follow him sometimes.  But the most important part, for me--besides receiving Holy Eucharist, the Body, Blood, Soul & Divinity of Jesus Christ--was the Gospel reading.  We read from St. Luke's Gospel about the rich man who was robed in fine linen, while Lazarus--covered in sores that were licked by the dogs--sat outside begging for scraps.  When they died Abraham grabbed Lazarus up & embraced him.  The rich man died and went down, down down into the flames.  He was hot, burning up, and looked up & saw Lazarus there with Abraham.  The rich man sad, "father Abraham, please ask Lazarus to dip his finger into some water & wet the tip of my tongue, for I am burning up down here."  I am paraphrasing that part of the Gospel, but you get the gist of it.  Wow.  The reading goes on to say that the rich man had it all when he was alive and Lazarus had nothing.  He didn't give Lazarus the time of day, now he wants some water.....hmmm.

Well my friends and blog readers (all six of you) let's remember to not cast people aside based on how they look or smell or act or whatever.  You never know when you may be dying of thirst and that person you judged & ignored is in possession of a giant jug of ice water!!

Cleaned the heck out of my house today, put some books on my new shelves, and did some reading & napping.  Time to repeat those last two.

I love you all. Take care of one another. ♥♥♥ m//r Get Your Mind Blown??

Wanna' Hear a Whopper? it was, so shall it be.  My mind is completely & utterly blown away!!  I have seen some crazy, nutty, oddball stuff in my life, but NOTHING like today!!  I'm in shock.  I mean and humored.  Never. Have. I. Seen. Anything. Like. This.   Yes, after the initial shock, came the incredible humor.   My friends & I were/are laughing so fucking hard!!  This is one story I will want to remember & repeat for the rest of my life!!  Good one.
Got the day off today so I was re-watching an old classic!
One of my favorite movies as a kid......"Pinocchio!"
It's just so cute (and kind of sad!) how Pinocchio's nose grows larger & larger as he lies more & more. It's as if he has some kind of curse or something?!



"The Yoga of Christ: Understanding the Hidden Teachings of the Gospels"

 "The Yoga of Christ: Understanding the Hidden Teachings of the Gospels"  by Paramahansa Yogananda, is a book that I am currently reading (as well as several others like I always do).  I've been more & more attracted to it.  A few of the short paragraphs I've read were just completely stunning to me!!  Wow.  This yogi really knows a lot about Christianity & the Holy Bible.  I didn't know this when I picked the book up, but it is a condensed version of "The Second Coming of Christ: The Resurrection of the Christ Within You" a two volume work.  I am now ready to go out & get that set!  I believe Barnes & Noble has it.   

Just wanted to give a mention to this.  Happy Friday night everyone!!  Stay safe, use caution, and keep on trying to love one another.  I know it's not easy, but it's worth it.   m//r 

Eastern & Western Church Fathers

INTEGRITY "Always Is Always Forever" DVD // Pure Genius--

I have ALWAYS been a huuuge fan of INTEGRITY! I believe it was 1991 or '92 when I first heard their album, "For Those Who Fear Tomorrow" released by Overkill Records, I think, a decidedly heavy metal label. Far from the DIY, small, vegan & straightedge labels that were really just beginning to flourish at this time. Heck, even Victory Records only had a handful--less than a dozen--releases at this point. (more later....stopping mid thought as usual. Have some things to attend to at the moment...)

Jimmy Cliff "One More" Video! Music From the Great Legend!!

New song from the legendary reggae artist Jimmy Cliff, with Tim Armstrong from OPERATION IVY/RANCID/THE TRANSPLANTS playing guitar!!  Really great stuff, especially some of the other videos showing studio footage of the two.  Tim is also the one who released all three of Joe Strummer's (R.I.P.) records (Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros) on his label, Hellcat Records.  Hellcat is owned by Tim Armstrong, and it's kind of a subsidy of Epitaph Records, which is owned by Brett Gurewitz of Bad Religion.  I think it's just great how older punk & reggae meet up with modern hardcorepunk.  It's a small world after all...LOL, I'll have THAT song stuck in my head for days now. Oy vey!  Seriously, get into this!  Good stuff!! m//r 


Rachmaninov Vespers: "Rejoice, O Mother of God" // And Other Beautiful Songs--

Absolutely stunning & beautiful! Mesmerizing! I love it!  Soothes my soul & injects a peaceful presence into my being.  All I long for is peace & love in my life.  No more strife, fighting, or arguments.  No more hate, disease, & dysfunction.  Peace, love, contentment, and Christ Consciousness is what I want & need.  I KNOW that I still have so much love to give while inhabiting this mortal coil.    ♥♥♥


Books, Books, Books!!

    [BUZZCOCKS "Ever Fallen in Love With Someone You Shouldn't've Fallen In Love With?" video below]
      [And I'm thinking about RANCID, "Life Won't Wait" album-no video here but some other posts w/them]    


Lots & Lots of New Books // Living Near the Public Library Is So Great--

These past few weeks have seen a nice cache of books cometh upon me, via the USPS & UPS man/woman/hermaphrodite! 

These past few weeks have also seen me move into my new place, just me & two housemates, very cool!  We're living together, peacefully, similar to "third order" Benedictine monks you could say.  

These are very dedicated & supportive guys--sober & spiritual--ready to help me get that gnarly, nutty dame out of my mind & memory forever!   I'm not even sure  WHAT  I was thinking in the first place, other than to say that I was EXTREMELY desperate, sad, confused, lonely, and hard up.  Hell, I would've taken a friggin' blow up doll over that crazy cat lady!  She was the first & only woman whom I have dated who would tell me all about what her cats did that day, their little adventures, how they were acting, behaving, misbehaving, froliccing around, their emotional states, what they ate, how many times they shit, their medical problems (including one long drawn out boring as hell story about how one of them had problems with his "anal duct glands!"  OMG, I shit you not! Pun intended! If I have to listen to her whiney voice say "anal duct" one more time I'm gonna' use ice picks to puncture my eardrums, with pleasure!) and even the conversations the cats had with her!  (I'm serious!)  All b.s. aside, that's exactly how things went on an almost daily basis.  It (her stories & her unbearable screeching voice) got to be so annoying that I would tell her I didn't have voice minutes left on my phone, only texting minutes.  As a result we hardly EVER talked on the phone, but texted & emailed instead.   
Regarding 'doing the nasty' as my friends and I used to call it (somehow the word "nasty" seems very apopro here--)  This person & I slept together MAYBE a dozen times, probably a bit less, in over two years of dating. (!!!)  She just didn't like sex much at all.  Notwithstanding the fact that she was TERRIBLE at it and lacked romance, couthe, or any semblance of how to behave in the bedroom (one ultra disgusting moment comes to mind, involving her abruptly checking to see if she started menstruating, right in the middle of what was supposed to be foreplay but instead turned into me summoning all of my willpower to control my gag reflex as the hyper-acidic stomach juices made their way up my esophagus & I nearly lost my lunch on her bedroom floor! FYI, this was one of the many instances that I was unable to even consider 'doing the nasty' with her).   I didn't even know that it was possible for a female, made of sugar & spice and everything nice, but brothers I'm here to tell you that it sure is.  These were hands down, by far & wide the absolute WORST sexual experiences, that I have ever had the displeasure of taking part (or NOT taking part) in, in my entire life!  And trust me dear readers, I am leaving a LOT of the more disgusting & profane X-rated moments out of my family friendly blog! (LOL, yeah real family friendly!)   
So uh yeah, where was I??  Suffering from PTSD, that's where.  For some reason being with this gal just felt "wrong." felt dirty, gross, & "odd."  Imagine getting into a relationship years later with a person you watched get teased, made fun of, and mocked when you were in high school, even if you weren't one of the people who was doing the bullying (for the record I think harassing each other--especially those weaker than you--in school is stupid & wrong, but we all know it happens everywhere).   Her & I did know each other in h.s. but we were never exactly "friends" though we certainly weren't enemies.  And so many years later, after bumping into each other on facebook & exchanging emails & text messages, we started hanging out in person & dating.   I looked at several of her pictures she had on her facebook page, and THEY LOOKED pretty good, she looked like she aged well!   HOWEVER--and here's the caveat--I was under the impression that she had some kind of a nose job since I last saw her twenty years ago or so (at that point she was a member of the notorious 'Northern Hammerskins' here in Detroit, & that made her an arch enemy of mine!  She went from white corpse paint and black lipstick with a charged mohawk, to a bleach-blonde chelsea cut with shined up Doc Martens & a disgusting attitude.  Her whiney voice starting fights at hardcore shows, just to have her Nazi boyfriends jump us ten to one.  YUCK!!)  but to me her nose was just as large as I'd remembered it!  It was even difficult to kiss her because it always bumped me first!!  Now I know why she says that she NEVER wears her hair pulled back in a pony-tail or braids, etc...  It would only exaggerate her nasty oversized bulbous nose!  I also now know WHY she says she hates to have her pic taken--she is STILL embarrassed about her bulbous nose!  My goodness, 45 years old & she is as self conscious as a 15 year old!  I mean wow. Just wow.  Lastly, I find it very suspicious that when her & I first started talking & dating, she asked me, "how do I get rid of this guy who keeps calling & texting & emailing me?  I don't want him around anymore."  I suggested she tell him that she has herpes or another S.T.I., for that'll certainly scare him off!!  However, I'm now sure that she sicced the police on him!!  Wow.  I think she likes to pretend that she is always being chased after, courted & wanted, it makes perfect sense, since all homely women like to THINK they are a wanted commodity, when in reality they are a last resort for whomever is desperate & hard up.  Seen one, seen 'em all.  Just not one named love lost.  It wasn't there in the first place.  Just desperate times. :(  
For Some, Telling Lies is All They Know

I'll post something (if just a list) about my new books (about two dozen or so) in the coming hours or days. 
Heading over to Christ the King church in a bit to spend some time with Our Lord in Eucharistic Adoration soon.  God, I LOVE Friday nights!  
Keep the peace & look out for your brothers & sisters. m//r

UPDATE (Tues night):
Checked these out from the library for starters:

"Love and Living"
  -by Thomas Merton

"Wake Up: A Life of the Buddha"
  -by Jack Kerouac

"Good Life, Good Death: Tibetan Wisdom on Reincarnation"
  -by Rimpoche Nawang Gehlek

"Mind Fist: The Asian Art of the Ninja Masters" [awesome book!]
  -by Dr. Haha Lung

"Ordinary People as Monks & Mystics: Lifestyles for Self-discovery"
  -by Marsha Sinetar

"The Way of Wisdom"
  -by Margaret Silf

"Awakening the Quieter Virtues"
  -by G. Spencer

"The Birth of Satan: Tracing the Devil's Biblical Roots"
  -by T.J. Ray & G. Mobley

"The Hades Project"
  -by L. Sholes & J. Moore

"The Jesus Discovery: The New Archaeological Find that Reveals the Birth of Christianity"
  -by J.D. Tabor & S. Jacobovici

"The End of Suffering: Finding Purpose in Pain"
 -by Scott Cairns

"Care of the Soul: A Guide for Cultivating Depth & Sacredness in Everyday Life"
  -by Thomas Moore

"Rational Mysticism: Dispatches from the Border Between Science & Spirituality"
  -by J. Horgan

"The Evolution-Creation Struggle"
  -by M. Ruse

"Did Jesus Exist: The Historical Argument for Jesus of Nazareth"
  -by Bart Ehrman


These arrived in the mail or transported by mule from the bookstore(s):

"A Concise History of Nazi Germany"
  -by J.W. Bendersky

"Wisdom from the Monastery: A Program of Spiritual Healing"
  -by Peter Seewald

"Jesus Was a Liberal: Reclaiming Christianity for All"
  -by Rev. Scotty Mc Lennan

"In Search of Japan's Hidden Christians: A Story of Suppression, Secrecy, and Survival"
  -by John Dougill

"The Orthodox Church in Eastern Europe in the Twentieth Century"
  -by C. Chaillot

"The Emergence of Buddhism"
  -by J.N. Kinnard

"The Word of the Buddha"
  -by Nyanatiloka

"Breaking Open the Head: A Psychedelic Journey into the Heart of Contemporary Shamanism"
  -by Daniel Pinchbeck

"Where We Got the Bible: Our Debt to the Catholic Church"
  -by Henry G. Graham

"Still the Mind"
  -by Alan Watts

"The Way of Zen"
  -by Alan Watts

"The Nazi Occult"
  -by Kenneth Hite

"The Debate of King Milinda"
  -by Bhikkhu Pesala

"Occult America: White House Seances, Ouija Circles, Masons, & the Secret History of Our Nation"
  -by Mitch Horowitz

"Hitler in the Crosshairs: A GI's Story of Courage & Faith"
  -by J. Woodbridge & M. Possley

  -by George Woodcock [I'd hate to have that name!]

"Germany, 1945: From War to Peace [awesome!]
  -by R. Bessel

"Is the Holocaust Unique: Perspectives on Comparative Genocide"
  -by Alan S. Rosenbaum  [the answer is NO! there have been a lot of tragedies comparable to the Jewish Holocaust™. worse things have happened. sorry]

"Philosophy of Human Rights"
  -by D. Boersema

"The Defamation of Pius XII"
  -by Ralph McInerny

"The Age of Kali: Indian Travels & Encounters"
  -by W. Dalrymple

.......and two dozen more, but I'm tired now. Keep the peace & tell your friends & family that you love them! m//r

"The Gnostic Gospel of Judas: Revolutionary Christianity"

The Gnostic Gospel of Judas: Revolutionary Christianity (link to great article)

RANCID Every Album, All Songs in Chronological Order!! & Some of My Musings--

AWESOME!!! Make sure to start from song #1 'cuz YouTube screws up all the time and randomly starts wherever it wants to on users playlists! But listen, this kid compiled all of RANCID's songs, from each album and made one f'n long playlist! Sure, there are a few things missing, like the first 7", the "B-Sides & C-Sides" comp. CD, etc. But heck, this is totally rad! Seriously makes my night!!
See you bastards in the pit! m//r
  [little update Fri nite 9.27.13 --watching the "Give 'em the Boot" DVD and relaxing at home. Writing in my journal, surfing the web, and reading books. This is what I do. And I'm trying to do it with love. Went to Mass today at St. John the Baptist Catholic Church here in Ypsilanti. Nice Mass said by Fr. Bob. Today is the feast day of St. Vincent dePaul. I love you all. m//r ♥♥♥]


Moved Into a New House // Books // Love Lost, etc...

Last weekend I moved into a nice, old (and I mean OLD) house right behind the Ypsilanti public library off of Michigan Ave.  I live with two other Catholic men, who are living as close as one can live, as a third order Benedictine oblate.  This is something I've wanted for a while now.  This week I also, unexpectedly, was discharged from probation!!!  Yay for me!  "God is doing for me what I cannot do for myself."  I'm still in the process of moving my belongings from my old place, as well as all the "stuff" in my two storage units.  Oy vey!  I have well over 5000 books, and I am sooooo stoked to be able to have them all properly displayed on the beautiful bookshelves we're building!!  (Well, I mean hopefully we're building!)

[Also, I have received a nice sized cache of books in the mail & from bookstores over the past couple of weeks, about forty new books altogether, I believe (sometimes it's just so difficult to keep track of!)  I will probably list the majorly important ones here, and hopefully see what my amazing friends think of them.]

edited 9.27.13[Mother of God, please help all the addicts out there suffering, amen.]


Wisdom: Proverbs

Her [Wisdom] ways are pleasant ways,
And all her paths, peaceful.
She is a tree of life to those who grasp her,
And whoever holds onto her is happy.
(Proverbs 3:17-18)


SICK OF IT ALL Live in Paris 2013 // Excellent hi-def Show!!

One hardcore band that has consistently put out quality albums for nearly thirty years now! How can you NOT give props to SICK OF IT ALL?! Great band!



Turning Pain Into Spiritual Growth--

How does one go about turning physical, mental, and emotional pain into a positive force used as an aid to spiritual growth & maturity?  This seems to be the premise--backbone--of Alcoholics Anonymous & other twelve step fellowships.  What if there were a cure for addiction that came out on the market tomorrow?  Like a pill or a series of pills or injections or surgery that allowed the addicted person to resume normal drinking & drugging.  (Though who can say with any certainty WHAT "normal" drinking/drugging is?)  Would there be a plethora of people trying heroin, cocaine, or methamphetamines knowing that if they got hooked, they could just go through the process of curing themselves?  I highly doubt that, but would people already hooked--addicted--sign up for this cure?  I would imagine so, since the majority of individuals who attempt to quit using AA/NA/other 12-step groups usually fail.  I don't know the stats off the top of my head, but more people DON'T recover than DO recover using the 12-steps.  And actually that's quite depressing since AA & NA are actually proven to be more effective than any other form of treatment. 
Most of us need the pain, the "pitiful & incomprehensible demoralization" that comes along with living a lifestyle addicted to alcohol & other drugs, to transition into a spiritual lifestyle.  As the AA Big Book says, "alcohol was the 'great persuader.'"

Take care & keep on keeping on! m//r

What Do Holocaust Revisionists Actually Believe? (It's NOT About Vile Hatred, Despite What You Make Think

Simply put: