Current Playlist For the Soundtrack To My Life--

Do not be mistaken by this post, I am NOT suicidal.  Depressed some, maybe.  Pissed off & angry?
Yeah, some. I've been told by a couple of people lately that I seem to be "full of anger."  I wouldn't say that I'm full of anger though.  Like all human being, I am multi-faceted and at times a walking contradiction of myself.  I do want there to be love & understanding at every step of the way in my life.  I do want there to be peace everywhere in the world.  I do want for everyone to get along & work together for the common benefit.  But we all know that you can't always get what you want.  Even the ROLLING STONES knew that!  So some of the time I am extremely angry & bitter & some of the time I'm super positive, optimistic, happy & content.  I suppose that when I was younger, as a little punk rock teenager, I was very angry all the time.  That seemed to be the nature of being punk.  You were angry at society, the world, and the rulers of this fucked up system.  THAT's what punk rock was all about, or so I thought.
But now, today, being a bit older I don't necessarily see things the same way.  Also, being forced to play the hand I've been dealt has given me a different perspective on things.  However I suppose I'm a bit more outspoken when I'm angry, so I see how some friends could convict me of being "full of anger." Because, after all, when you stand accused of something, you must be ready to be convicted.
Still--as always--take care of each other & look out for one another. And enjoy the music here.
We're all in this together. m//r
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NEGLECT


COLD AS LIFE


NEGATIVE APPROACH



GBH


DANZIG

DEATH THREAT

New Books I'm Digging--

Well, of course we here at m//r love books & love reading in general!
I spend more than I earn, on books. Huh? No, it doesn't make any sense to me either.

Here's what I've got new to dig into:

"Secret Journey to Planet Serpo: A True Story of Interplanetary Travel"
  -by Len Kasten

"On Being Catholic"
  -by Thomas Howard

"The Secret History of Consciousness: Ancient Keys to Our Future Survival"
  -by Meg Blackburn Losey, Ph.D.

"Deep Truth: Igniting the Memory of Our Origin, History, Destiny, and Fate"
  -by Gregg Braden

"Breaking the Mirror of Heaven: The Conspiracy to Suppress the Voice of Ancient Egypt"
  -by Robert Bauval & Ahmed Osman

"Forbidden Science: From Ancient Technologies to Free Energy"
  -edited by J. Douglas Kenyon

"X - Events: Complexity Overload & the Collapse of Everything"
  -by John Casti

"Pope Francis"
  -by Matthew E. Bunson, D.Min.

Got Several New Books In the Mail Today & Learned To Control My Mouth & My Brain--

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It was a good mail day today. After being a shitty day early on, the mail lady came & brightened things up for me a bit.  Other than that my "boss" still didn't pay me today!!! I called him last night to ask him if he could please drop off my check to me this morning, since he DID say he was going to pay me today, and he told me no, he couldn't bring it to me because he wasn't even gonna' be around today!  What?!?  He told me two Friday's ago that he couldn't pay me that day but he would pay me on Tues., after the holiday. Then on Tues. he said we weren't working that day--ostensibly due to rain--but we would be working on Wed. So I assumed he'd pay me Wed. Nope. He told me there wasn't much more work for me, but he'd have a check first thing Mon. morning for me. That's why I called him last night. I tried calling him today but there's no answer. He DID tell me last night that he had another big job & needed me this week, so we'll see. But he already owes me over $300 and I'm not sure I want to work for him anymore. Things could change, and I do need the money. I've got some serious bills that need my attention, not to mention rent that is past due now. Last night he promised me a check this Friday. Hmmm. Seems like he's dodging me. Fortunately for me I made him cut me a check last week for $240, but he asked me not to cash it yet, that he'd pay me my full amount due a.s.a.p. So I've been holding off on putting this check through, but if, by this Fri., he doesn't pay me the full sum of what I'm owed, I'll cash this check and cut me losses. Lesson learned. when dealing with racist, half-assed, inbred, 21 yr old chodes, BE CAREFUL. 
That's my rant on the b.s. of the day. If it's not one thing it's another. I've had some comfort with my Christian meditation lately. Between Eucharistic Adoration & some mystical Christianity (of the Roman Catholic variety) books I've got my nose in, I've been able to sleep a little easier, and calm down when my mind gets to racing. I take comfort in knowing that my Lord, Jesus Christ, is with me all the time, at every step of the way. I try to picture Jesus sitting with me, at the end of my bed, verbally telling me, "it's all right My son."  THAT is a big help. Say what you may about my religious/spiritual leanings, but it works for me. "Restraint of pen & tongue" is about the greatest piece of advice I've ever read.
Use love. ♥ m//r
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Here's a few of the titles the mail lady brought me today:

"The Dynamics of Israeli-Palestinian Relations: Theory, History, and Cases"
  -by Ben Soetendorp

"UFO Religion: Inside Flying Saucer Cults & Culture"
  -by Greg L. Reece

"The Station: Travels to the Holy Mountain of Greece"
  -by Robert Byron

......and a couple of history & religious books.

" Beings & Things: The Story of Love " (a short film of wisdom) Excellent Food For Thought--

Word to the wise. 

An excellent short film made by a Hare Krishna devotee, ostensibly to teach a lesson on the harmful element of "attraction" that is in all of us.  "One man's trash is another man's treasure."  He teaches us how we go through this life using people to meet our needs, to make us feel better, or to try to solve our problems.  I like the idea behind this vignette, but I feel like the filmmaker is assuming that we are all just simply materialist's with no spirituality injected into our day to day lives. I know for me at least, that isn't the case.  I TRY to be conscious of who & what I am using. That at least is a beginning. Though I don't consider myself to be a spiritual beginner, I'm also not a spiritual giant. Perhaps I'm somewhere in-between.

Watch this. Learn from it, perhaps. And give yourself a break. 
Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, is THAT bad in your life. A problem shared with someone else is a problem split in half. That's what my spiritual teachers always tell me. And I've found it to be the truth.
Use love. ♥ m//r 

" Journey Through the Universe at the Speed of Light " Awesome HD Video Exploring Our Universe!--

This is amazing to watch on full screen in 1080p! I'm pretty sure it's Alec Baldwin narrating this video. He has narrated at least one other video of this type, so it's a good guess he did this one. I think this might be from Discovery Channel but there are no breaks in it or annoying logos. It takes you on a guided tour all over our solar system & beyond, stopping off at various planets & moons to investigate! Pretty cool if you ask me! Get in to it! It really makes you realize how small and inconsequential & insignificant we are in the grand scheme of things. ♥ m//r

" The Lost Gospels " An Excellent Documentary From BBC 4

This is by far one of the best mainstream documentaries on the Nag Hammadi & other Gnostic books that I have yet to come across. The host is an Anglican priest, but he is far from a closed minded Christian, unlike many other's in high-church Christology. I love reading about the different scts of early Christianity & hope to one day be able to visit the Holy Land. m//r

" Diadochos of Photiki: Philosophical Poems & Quotes " This Is Great!--

A fantastic site I found with extensive quotes & information from Holy Masters. Lots of great quotes from wise Christian hermits, Buddhist monks, and Hindu holy men. This is most certainly not dedicated to any one spiritual tradition, as it encompasses wisdom from all of the world's great traditions!  Loving it! ♥♥♥ m//r


Diadochos of Photiki: Philosophical Poems & Quotes (link)

" Jesus In Kashmir (India) " Documentary by the Indian Government--

Here we have for your consideration, another documentary, this time produced & released by the Indian govt, about Jesus either surviving His crucifixion & travelling to India, China, Asia, etc, OR Jesus Christ going to India et al, between the ages of 12 & 30. I like this narrators voice and the background music. It's really easy to listen to. Soothing, yes....that's the word. So if you have some time, play this video in the background while you do whatever it is you have to do. Or spend some time attentively watching this documentary. But if you're anything like me you're doing five things at one time!
Ahhhh, spread some nice vibes today....show someone you don't like, some love. We don't always like all the people we come in contact with, but we should strive to love them. ♥

Some New Books I'm Currently Reading ( May/June )

"We've Never Been Alone: A History of Extraterrestrial Intervention"

  -by Paul Von Ward

"Mind Programming: From Persuasion & Brainwashing to Self-Help & Practical Metaphysics"

  -by Eldon Taylor

"The Gnostic Mystery"

  -by Randy Davila

"Extraordinary Knowing: Science, Skepticism, & the Inexplicable Powers of the Human Mind"

  -by E.L. Mayer, Ph.D.

"A Thousand Splendid Suns"  (by the guy who wrote "The Kiterunner")

  -by Khaled Hosseini

"Gnosis of the Cosmic Christ: A Gnostic Christian Kabbalah"

  -by Tau Malachi

"Teachings of the Christian Mystics"

  edited by Andrew Harvey
"Orthodoxy & the Religion of the Future"

  -by Fr. Seraphim Rose

"Brave New World"  (a classic I am revisiting!)

  -by Aldous Huxley

"The Alien Abduction Files: The Most Startling Cases of Human-Alien Contact Ever Reported"

  -by Kathleen Marden & Denise Stoner

"Navigating the Out of Body Experience: Radical New Techniques"

  -by Graham Nicholls

"Killing Jesus: The Unknown Conspiracy Behind the World's Most Famous Execution"

  -by Stephen Mansfield

"The Lucifer Effect: Understanding How Good People Turn Evil"

  -by Philip Zimbardo

"Grey Wolf: The Escape of Adolf Hitler"

  -by S. Dunstan & G. Williams

Sunday, May 26, 2013--

Another Sunday. Another end to another weekend. Kind of. Tomorrow is an extra weekend day! No work tomorrow since it's Memorial Day. Get paid on Tues this week instead of Fri. Fine with me.
Woke up early today, prayed & meditated, went to Holy Mass at CTK (had a guest priest from India say the Mass!) and came home to eat leftover Chinese food for lunch. Listening to the 10,000 MANIACS and contemplating a nap. Although I did sleep well last night--and even slept for nine hours--I'm still feeling like a nap is in order!!  m//r

10,000 MANIACS " Verdi Cries " Such a damn beautiful song!--

Man oh man, I freaking LOVE this song! Actually I love this ENTIRE album!!! The first time I heard it was in 1987 or '88 when I stole it from my sister. She owned the cassette version and I didn't know anything about the band, but I just wanted to take something of hers. I was a hardcore punkrock skinhead, but I instantly fell in love with this album! Ever since then I have owned it at least twice on CD & two copies of it on vinyl. I remember giving one vinyl copy to Marc McFinn, my best friend, several years ago. He loves the 10,000 MANIACS also. Who doesn't? Well, many people don't, I know that. Someone recently gave me some shit on fb when I posted a song or two. And what's up with this band re-forming several years back, with OUT Natalie Merchant?!? They even recorded an album & toured! Has anyone heard the album? I haven't, and I don't want to. The snippets of songs I HAVE heard, sucked. I'd rather remember them this way. Amen. 

     

JUDGE " Like You " Awesome song!

JUDGE played two reunion shows last Sat. & Sun. They played well & things sounded good. JUDGE will be playing "This Is Hardcore" fest this summer. Good for them. I'm very happy that they are playing shows again, and MAYBE writing new songs. Mike Judge alluded to that last Sat. during his show. We'll see how that pans out. Here's the song, "Like You." I love it. Guitar ballad intro, slower hardcore starts up, with Mike's rugged voice & kick-ass lyrics....YEAH BOY! Haha, enjoy the song! I'm dead dog fuckin' tired. Damn. Had to meet my boss at the corner of Jackson & Wagner in A2. That meant taking the #3 AATA bus to downtown A2, then transferring to the #9 for a ten minute ride to meet him. I jump in the truck & we hit the highway towards Ypsilanti. Turns out he had to drop off an invoice/bill to a customer. I said, "Boss! WTF?!? This is about two miles from my house, why the heck did I catch the bus all the way to the west side of A2 if you were gonna' be coming so close to Ypsi???" Boss goes, "oh. Yeah. Yeah I guess I could've." Haha, poor guy. He's a young kid, and he told me today his gf thought she might be preggers! Ah-ha! I *KNEW* he had something on his mind! I could tell! Anyhow, enough of that.....We cut, edged, & trimmed many, many properties today. Worked nine hours today. Usually Fridays will be 12+ hour days. But we got some stuff done yesterday, so we were all good today....

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Something Is Missing--

Checkin' in here, for anyone who may be reading. Friends, acquantences, lovers, and liars. Things have been going swell over the past two months. I'm working a lot these days--got a very good gig doing landscaping for 'R & J Lawn & Snow' out of Ann Arbor. We work all over Washtenaw county. Mainly in west A2, Dexter, Chelsea, and Ypsilanti. Mowing, weeding, edging, mulching, fall clean-up (well, not yet of course), and all things lawn & landscaping. I've been getting sunburned & tanned, sunburned & tanned, ad infinitum. Yes, it's a little hard trying to keep up with these 20-25 yr old kids, but I'm hanging in there! Beside's the money's really, really good! I've also lost 6 pounds since I started this job! Yay for me! God is good. He really is. But there's just something lacking in my life. Perhaps it's love. Yes. Love. Love. That four letter word....

" Christianity Was In India 2000 yrs Ago " Great Theories Here--

Listen up! This is an excellent documentary proposing that Jesus Christ, Son of God, spent several years of His life in the areas of China, India, Tibet, Nepal, etc. Learning & teaching with different sages & mystics & "wise-men." There ARE many, many people who earnestly believe that Jesus did some extensive traveling between the ages of 12 & 30. I'm not saying He did or didn't go to these countries. But I do love watching these kinds of stories & reading books on this subject. I am a Catholic Christian who goes to Mass every Sunday, but I refuse to be closed-minded about other people's beliefs & views or stories such as this. Check it out for yourself & make up your own mind. Follow your heart. Always use love.

"The Most Holy Theotokos" by Archbishop Lazar Puhalo - Byzantine Seminary Press

Here's a quick link to a book I think will be interesting. I can never read or hear enough about the Virgin Mary, Mother of God, my Mother, & the Most Holy Theotokos. "Theotokos" is a Greek word that means, "bearer of God." In the Eastern Orthodox & Eastern Catholic churches, Mary is called Theotokos. I think it's a beautiful word! I will most likely order this book this week (last week of May), but I am already about sixty books in the hole. Meaning I have around sixty books on my shelves that I haven't even read yet! Yikes!!! OK everyone, remember to TRY to love on another & TRY to take care of one another. Peace.

>>The Most Holy Theotokos by Archbishop Lazar Puhalo (link to the Byzantine Seminary Press)