.....it still lingers. It probably won't ever go away.
It's like a blanket I wear around me, all the time.
It's heavy.
It hurts.
There is no "out."
What do others do?
What do YOU do?
My uncle took his life in 2011.
Some say he didn't end his pain.
He just passed it along to others.
I don't think he had the answer.
Who does?
What is it?
I look in the mirror & I see nothing.
Empty.
The Mirror of Emptiness.
It's gone.
It fled.
It left me behind.
The pain it still lingers.
God knows.
God knows it still lingers.
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this sums it all up...SOIA SICK OF IT ALL
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From the most hated SLAPSHOT album, "Unconsciousness" produced by the almighty Steve Albini. Albini was, of course, the genius behind BIG BLACK, RAPEMAN, and SHELLAC. He also played in PEGBOY for a bit. PEGBOY is ex-NAKED RAYGUN, of course. Well this SLAPSHOT album does have a few gems on it, but "Insomnia" is not one of them. It is an Ok song though. Mos def weird for this "straightedge hardcore" powerhouse to write these kind of songs. Enjoy! m//r
Hot damn on fire! Yesterday saw the arrival of seven awesome Buddhist books from the monks of the Thai Forest tradition monastery in Redwood, California!!
I also picked up a few great titles from a used bookstore. These are mostly of the contemplative & mystical Christian tradition. My spiritual collection is coming along nicely. I'm am surely blessed to have a veritable library of knowledge at my fingertips!! That to a lifetimes' worth of reading material. I shall not be bored again. This is love m//r
Holy smokes! Dug out three more boxes of books from storage! Including doubles & triples of a few. Those will go to my friends Catholic Men's House, "Friends of the Master" in Ypsilanti. I've already donated around one hundred books to them, with about another hundred waiting to be transported.
I've decided I need to really make a serious inventory of what's here. And it's just as easy to put it on my blog as it is to put it in one of my hand-written journals. Wish me luck! m//r
note: I am NOT including novels & fiction (for the most part)
This week the mailman brought me the new issue of "Sophia: Journal of the Melkite Catholic Church." I plan on writing more about this real soon, because this issue is full of excellent articles (many of them reprinted from other more obscure & hard to find sources.) Some great features about the work our new Pope & others in the Roman Catholic & Eastern Catholic Churches are doing to attempt to heal the schism between us & our Orthodox Christian brothers & sisters.
I also received the new issue (a double issue at that!) of "Orthodox Word" published by the St. Herman of Alaska monastery in CA., as well as two other Eastern Orthodox journals from two other monasteries here in America.
I love this movie! That kid from DISTRICT 9 is hilarious! It's either all the weed he smokes, or the angel dust he says he tried a few days ago, that's melting his mind! Anyhow, this is a classic. Right below "Another State of Mind" & "Suburbia" but not quite side-by-side with those two CLASSIC classics. You know what I mean. m//r
This is an incredibly succinct summary of the travails of mankind (humankind).
I love this and you will too! Keep an open mind & give yourself a break.
Always use love. I love you, in case no one has told you that today!
Don't let the Zionist puppeteers & slave masters grind you down!
You are worth it. WE are worth it. m//r
Don't Watch this Film from
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I love Robert Bauval & own a few of his books. The man is a genius & is looking for the truth. m//r
Got a shit ton of new reading material to keep me busy! Almost finished with "The Celestine Prophecy" & still balls-deep in "Ishmael." Plus, trying to navigate my way around two dozen other books that I continually revisit.
Started reading the book, "Ishmael" yesterday.
Cant. Stop. Reading. It.
Great book so far! I can't believe I slept on this for a decade now.
